Tuesday, May 29, 2012


So...Today is cd 17 (cycle day) and according to my doctor i should have ovulated...according to all my opk test i haven't...and im suppose to wait up to cd40 to come and see them..they wanna see if i get a period on my own..if i do great...but i can go years and years with out a why one magic month and im going to get one?? I dont understand....pretty frustrating..i guess i will keep doing my opk test and see if maybe i will ovulate late or something?! i dunno...

Monday, May 28, 2012

Information Blog for all you TTCevers......."Pre-Seed" is a MUST!!

Pre-Seed is a must for all you ttcevers out there!! its spendy but soo worth it!!

Here is some facts about it and what it is...enjoy...



What makes Pre-Seed different?

Safe for use by couples trying to conceive—Pre-Seed is the first lubricant ever allowed to make this statement. The safety of Pre-Seed for sperm is supported by independent, published studies.
Woman Sperm Physiologist Dr. Joanna Ellington (Dr. E) invented this 'fertility-friendly' isotonic formula specifically to meet the need for safe lubrication when trying to get pregnant.
Pre-Seed comes with applicators to deposit the unique lubricant inside, where it can coat the vagina and external cervix and best mimic your own natural fluids in an optimal environment for sperm.

Where to buy it?!

Check for Pre-Seed next to the ovulation and pregnancy tests or with the other lubricant products!
Pre-Seed is available at Target, CVS, Duane Reader, and Walgreens

Or online at

Recent Magazine Mentions

Best-Selling Fertility Books | Clinical Textbooks | Dr. E in the News
Fire Up Your Fertility
Shape, November 2011
Shape magazine tells readers to “Check your lube.” They state that studies show water-based lubricants might damage sperm and make it harder for them to swim. Shape notes that the American Society for Reproductive Medicine recommends using a pH-friendly lubricant like Pre-Seed.
If You’re Knocking Boots in Order to Get Knocked Up…
Women’s Health, Jul/Aug 2011
For couples trying to conceive, the editors of Women’s Health recommend Pre-Seed: “Most lubricants (and even saliva) can be harmful to sperm. But Pre-Seed’s formula allows your guy’s swimmers to travel freely.”
Can Using Lube Make It Harder to Get Pregnant?
Redbook, May 2011
Dr. Hutcherson, ob/gyn and professor at Columbia University, writes in Redbook:
“…using a water-based lubricant can make it even harder. That said, there’s a lube called Pre-Seed that infertility specialists recommend, because it has been shown not to slow down sperm. Try that when you’re trying.”
Use a Sperm-Friendly Lubricant
Conceive, Spring/Summer 2011
Here’s what Conceive has to say out Pre-Seed: “Water, saliva and most commercial lubricants are all dangerous to sperm. So if your lovemaking needs a little less friction, try a sperm-friendly lubricant such as Pre-Seed.”
Are You Having Trouble Conceiving?
Fresh Vancouver, April 2011
Dr. Spence Pentland in his informative guide to understanding fertile fluids writes: “Use Pre-Seed sperm-friendly lubricant. It is the only lubricant on the market proven to mimic the composition and functions of a woman’s natural fertile pre-ovulatory cervical fluids.”
Pre~Seed Named as One of the TOP Ten Lubricants in April 2011
StorErotica Magazine, April 2011
Pre-Seed is listed as one of the top 10 best selling lubricants in the industry by the retailers’ StorErotica Magazine in their April 2011 Special Focus Edition.
The Right Lube Could Make Lovin’ More Lovable…
Fitness, April 2011
Here’s what Fitness magazine has to say about Pre~Seed: "Women trying to get pregnant should pick Pre~Seed Personal Lubricant… which won’t interfere with sperm movement, unlike other products, because of its pH."


Pcos?!?! What is it?!? Do you have it or a loved one?!? if you have any of these symptoms please get checked out!!!

What is polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS)?

Polycystic (pah-lee-SIS-tik) ovary syndrome (PCOS) is a health problem that can affect a woman's:
  • Menstrual cycle
  • Ability to have children
  • Hormones
  • Heart
  • Blood vessels
  • Appearance
With PCOS, women typically have:
  • High levels of androgens (AN-druh-junz). These are sometimes called male hormones, though females also make them.
  • Missed or irregular periods (monthly bleeding)
  • Many small cysts (sists) (fluid-filled sacs) in their ovaries

How many women have PCOS?

Between 1 in 10 and 1 in 20 women of childbearing age has PCOS. As many as 5 million women in the United States may be affected. It can occur in girls as young as 11 years old.

What causes PCOS?

The cause of PCOS is unknown. But most experts think that several factors, including genetics, could play a role. Women with PCOS are more likely to have a mother or sister with PCOS.
A main underlying problem with PCOS is a hormonal imbalance. In women with PCOS, the ovaries make more androgens than normal. Androgens are male hormones that females also make. High levels of these hormones affect the development and release of eggs during ovulation.
Researchers also think insulin may be linked to PCOS. Insulin is a hormone that controls the change of sugar, starches, and other food into energy for the body to use or store. Many women with PCOS have too much insulin in their bodies because they have problems using it. Excess insulin appears to increase production of androgen. High androgen levels can lead to:

What are the symptoms of PCOS?

The symptoms of PCOS can vary from woman to woman. Some of the symptoms of PCOS include:
  • Infertility (not able to get pregnant) because of not ovulating. In fact, PCOS is the most common cause of female infertility.
  • Infrequent, absent, and/or irregular menstrual periods
  • Hirsutism (HER-suh-tiz-um) — increased hair growth on the face, chest, stomach, back, thumbs, or toes
  • Cysts on the ovaries
  • Acne, oily skin, or dandruff
  • Weight gain or obesity, usually with extra weight around the waist
  • Male-pattern baldness or thinning hair
  • Patches of skin on the neck, arms, breasts, or thighs that are thick and dark brown or black
  • Skin tags — excess flaps of skin in the armpits or neck area
  • Pelvic pain
  • Anxiety or depression
  • Sleep apnea — when breathing stops for short periods of time while asleep

Why do women with PCOS have trouble with their menstrual cycle and fertility?

The ovaries, where a woman’s eggs are produced, have tiny fluid-filled sacs called follicles or cysts. As the egg grows, the follicle builds up fluid. When the egg matures, the follicle breaks open, the egg is released, and the egg travels through the fallopian tube to the uterus (womb) for fertilization. This is called ovulation.
In women with PCOS, the ovary doesn't make all of the hormones it needs for an egg to fully mature. The follicles may start to grow and build up fluid but ovulation does not occur. Instead, some follicles may remain as cysts. For these reasons, ovulation does not occur and the hormone progesterone is not made. Without progesterone, a woman's menstrual cycle is irregular or absent. Plus, the ovaries make male hormones, which also prevent ovulation.
Normal ovary and polycystic ovary
Normal Ovary and Polycystic Ovary

Does PCOS change at menopause?

Yes and no. PCOS affects many systems in the body. So, many symptoms may persist even though ovarian function and hormone levels change as a woman nears menopause. For instance, excessive hair growth continues, and male-pattern baldness or thinning hair gets worse after menopause. Also, the risks of complications (health problems) from PCOS, such as heart attack, stroke, and diabetes, increase as a woman gets older.

How do I know if I have PCOS?

There is no single test to diagnose PCOS. Your doctor will take the following steps to find out if you have PCOS or if something else is causing your symptoms.
Medical history. Your doctor will ask about your menstrual periods, weight changes, and other symptoms.
Physical exam. Your doctor will want to measure your blood pressure, body mass index (BMI), and waist size. He or she also will check the areas of increased hair growth. You should try to allow the natural hair to grow for a few days before the visit.
Pelvic exam. Your doctor might want to check to see if your ovaries are enlarged or swollen by the increased number of small cysts.
Blood tests. Your doctor may check the androgen hormone and glucose (sugar) levels in your blood.
Vaginal ultrasound (sonogram). Your doctor may perform a test that uses sound waves to take pictures of the pelvic area. It might be used to examine your ovaries for cysts and check the endometrium (en-do-MEE-tree-uhm) (lining of the womb). This lining may become thicker if your periods are not regular.

How is PCOS treated?

Because there is no cure for PCOS, it needs to be managed to prevent problems. Treatment goals are based on your symptoms, whether or not you want to become pregnant, and lowering your chances of getting heart disease and diabetes. Many women will need a combination of treatments to meet these goals. Some treatments for PCOS include:
Lifestyle modification. Many women with PCOS are overweight or obese, which can cause health problems. You can help manage your PCOS by eating healthy and exercising to keep your weight at a healthy level. Healthy eating tips include:
  • Limiting processed foods and foods with added sugars
  • Adding more whole-grain products, fruits, vegetables, and lean meats to your diet
This helps to lower blood glucose (sugar) levels, improve the body's use of insulin, and normalize hormone levels in your body. Even a 10 percent loss in body weight can restore a normal period and make your cycle more regular.
Birth control pills. For women who don't want to get pregnant, birth control pills can:
  • Control menstrual cycles
  • Reduce male hormone levels
  • Help to clear acne
Keep in mind that the menstrual cycle will become abnormal again if the pill is stopped. Women may also think about taking a pill that only has progesterone (proh-JES-tuh-rohn), like Provera, to control the menstrual cycle and reduce the risk of endometrial cancer (See Does PCOS put women at risk for other health problems?). But, progesterone alone does not help reduce acne and hair growth.
Diabetes medications. The medicine metformin (Glucophage) is used to treat type 2 diabetes. It has also been found to help with PCOS symptoms, though it isn’t approved by the U.S Food and Drug Administration (FDA) for this use. Metformin affects the way insulin controls blood glucose (sugar) and lowers testosterone production. It slows the growth of abnormal hair and, after a few months of use, may help ovulation to return. Recent research has shown metformin to have other positive effects, such as decreased body mass and improved cholesterol levels. Metformin will not cause a person to become diabetic.
Fertility medications. Lack of ovulation is usually the reason for fertility problems in women with PCOS. Several medications that stimulate ovulation can help women with PCOS become pregnant. Even so, other reasons for infertility in both the woman and man should be ruled out before fertility medications are used. Also, some fertility medications increase the risk for multiple births (twins, triplets). Treatment options include:
  • Clomiphene (KLOHM-uh-feen) (Clomid, Serophene) — the first choice therapy to stimulate ovulation for most patients.
  • Metformin taken with clomiphene — may be tried if clomiphene alone fails. The combination may help women with PCOS ovulate on lower doses of medication.
  • Gonadotropins (goe-NAD-oh-troe-pins) — given as shots, but are more expensive and raise the risk of multiple births compared to clomiphene.
Another option is in vitro fertilization (IVF). IVF offers the best chance of becoming pregnant in any given cycle. It also gives doctors better control over the chance of multiple births. But, IVF is very costly.
Surgery. "Ovarian drilling" is a surgery that may increase the chance of ovulation. It’s sometimes used when a woman does not respond to fertility medicines. The doctor makes a very small cut above or below the navel (belly button) and inserts a small tool that acts like a telescope into the abdomen (stomach). This is called laparoscopy (lap-uh-RAHS-kuh-pee). The doctor then punctures the ovary with a small needle carrying an electric current to destroy a small portion of the ovary. This procedure carries a risk of developing scar tissue on the ovary. This surgery can lower male hormone levels and help with ovulation. But, these effects may only last a few months. This treatment doesn't help with loss of scalp hair or increased hair growth on other parts of the body.
Medicine for increased hair growth or extra male hormones. Medicines called anti-androgens may reduce hair growth and clear acne. Spironolactone (speer-on-oh-LAK-tone) (Aldactone), first used to treat high blood pressure, has been shown to reduce the impact of male hormones on hair growth in women. Finasteride (fin-AST-uhr-yd) (Propecia), a medicine taken by men for hair loss, has the same effect. Anti-androgens are often combined with birth control pills.  These medications should not be taken if you are trying to become pregnant.
Before taking Aldactone, tell your doctor if you are pregnant or plan to become pregnant. Do not breastfeed while taking this medicine. Women who may become pregnant should not handle Propecia.
Other options include:
  • Vaniqa (van-ik-uh) cream to reduce facial hair
  • Laser hair removal or electrolysis to remove hair
  • Hormonal treatment to keep new hair from growing
Other treatments. Some research has shown that bariatric (weight loss) surgery may be effective in resolving PCOS in morbidly obese women. Morbid obesity means having a BMI of more than 40, or a BMI of 35 to 40 with an obesity-related disease. The drug troglitazone (troh-GLIT-uh-zohn) was shown to help women with PCOS. But, it was taken off the market because it caused liver problems. Similar drugs without the same side effect are being tested in small trials.
Researchers continue to search for new ways to treat PCOS. To learn more about current PCOS treatment studies, External link. Talk to your doctor about whether taking part in a clinical trial might be right for you.

How does PCOS affect a woman while pregnant?

Women with PCOS appear to have higher rates of:
  • Miscarriage
  • Gestational diabetes
  • Pregnancy-induced high blood pressure (preeclampsia)
  • Premature delivery
Babies born to women with PCOS have a higher risk of spending time in a neonatal intensive care unit or of dying before, during, or shortly after birth. Most of the time, these problems occur in multiple-birth babies (twins, triplets).
Researchers are studying whether the diabetes medicine metformin can prevent or reduce the chances of having problems while pregnant. Metformin also lowers male hormone levels and limits weight gain in women who are obese when they get pregnant.
Metformin is an FDA pregnancy category B drug. It does not appear to cause major birth defects or other problems in pregnant women. But, there have only been a few studies of metformin use in pregnant women to confirm its safety. Talk to your doctor about taking metformin if you are pregnant or are trying to become pregnant. Also, metformin is passed through breastmilk. Talk with your doctor about metformin use if you are a nursing mother.

Does PCOS put women at risk for other health problems?

Women with PCOS have greater chances of developing several serious health conditions, including life-threatening diseases. Recent studies found that:
  • More than 50 percent of women with PCOS will have diabetes or pre-diabetes (impaired glucose tolerance) before the age of 40.
  • The risk of heart attack is 4 to 7 times higher in women with PCOS than women of the same age without PCOS.
  • Women with PCOS are at greater risk of having high blood pressure.
  • Women with PCOS have high levels of LDL (bad) cholesterol and low levels of HDL (good) cholesterol.
  • Women with PCOS can develop sleep apnea. This is when breathing stops for short periods of time during sleep.
Women with PCOS may also develop anxiety and depression. It is important to talk to your doctor about treatment for these mental health conditions.
Women with PCOS are also at risk for endometrial cancer. Irregular menstrual periods and the lack of ovulation cause women to produce the hormone estrogen, but not the hormone progesterone. Progesterone causes the endometrium (lining of the womb) to shed each month as a menstrual period. Without progesterone, the endometrium becomes thick, which can cause heavy or irregular bleeding. Over time, this can lead to endometrial hyperplasia, when the lining grows too much, and cancer.

I have PCOS. What can I do to prevent complications?

If you have PCOS, get your symptoms under control at an earlier age to help reduce your chances of having complications like diabetes and heart disease. Talk to your doctor about treating all your symptoms, rather than focusing on just one aspect of your PCOS, such as problems getting pregnant. Also, talk to your doctor about getting tested for diabetes regularly. Other steps you can take to lower your chances of health problems include:
  • Eating right
  • Exercising
  • Not smoking

How can I cope with the emotional effects of PCOS?

Having PCOS can be difficult. You may feel:
  • Embarrassed by your appearance
  • Worried about being able to get pregnant
  • Depressed
Getting treatment for PCOS can help with these concerns and help boost your self-esteem. You may also want to look for support groups in your area or online to help you deal with the emotional effects of PCOS. You are not alone and there are resources available for women with PCOS. 

what did you do this weekend?!?!

Hello everyone! How was everyones 3 day holiday weekend?!? Mine was pretty good!
Sat: Hubby worked and then we had movie night at our house..and just relaxed the weather was kinda crummy

Sun: The weather was beautiful!! Went to the beach with my Best Friend Alicia and my Hubby we went there from like 1pm-530ish...then we went and had pizza after it was so much fun and relaxing!! i loved every my tan on for sure :)

Mon: Well today didn't go as planned... I really wanted to do like a million things with my hubby, go hiking and feed the deers at the park and just have fun...well i woke up in the worst pain to the point i was bent over walking to the bathroom..i had horrible cramps so bad and my ovaries felt so full and im so bloated!! so my day consist of laying on the couch and occasionally walking outside..did a load of laundry..and that was about it... My husband was so fantastic and took care of me Gatorade and made sure i had enough water and made sure i ate...he is truly a blessing did i ever tell you how much i love my husband?!? ALOT ALOT ALOT im like the luckiest girl ever!

Tue im going to get my a mani and pedi im way excited! Only if im feeling better..I hope i am!! because im getting them done for free :) Nothing beats free right?!?

Then my mom is going to be gone from fri -and come home mon so i will be spending the weekend with my sister and nephew!! It should be fun! I believe were going to try to go to the zoo one of the im looking forward to that!!

So..the pain iv been into has been horrible (Monday) cramps, cramps, cramps and more cramps and bloating and horrible Pain..i know i had over 20 plus follicles and im on pelivic rest and i should be ovulating soon..i would think?!?! so i'm hoping this mean ovulation and soon the pain will go away..thanks to resting, drinking lots of fluid, Tylenol and and icepack that makes things a little better!!! im also so bloated looks like im like 3 months pregnant..than gosh for stretchy pants because i was not even tempting to put my blue jeans on today!! it would have been depressing!!

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

GROW, GROW, GROW!!!!!!!!! ughh frustrated

Ok so today was another follical ultrasound since i had 7 on Monday so i didn't take any medication Monday night or Tuesday night..had an Ultrasound at 910am this morning..and guess what?!? I went from 7 Follies to 20 plus!!!!!!!! ugh so that equals that this round is canceled...they want me on pelvic rest =no sex until my period arrives, they are almost 100% sure i will ovulate on my own since there are so many 2 gonal f pens down the drain!!!They are afraid i will over stimulate so i need to take it easy for the next 7-10days and i can't even lift anything over 25lbs..crazy body is flippen messed up!! frustrated the hell out of me...all of a sudden BAM my body wants to make follies...ugh we wait..for my period to start another round...yippie...NOT!
having all these extra follicals have made my girly area very tender and breast are sore..lots of extra hormones..


measurements today
Right side
Left side

Monday, May 21, 2012

love hate doctors appt today

so Iv been doing 6 days of gonal f to get my follicles to mature. Today i had an ultra sound to see if i had any follicles growing or any mature

Right size 
1) 11*11
Left size

18 and above is mature so i don't have any mature follicles but i have around 7 measureable ones
so with that said that say i over stimulated so...what they are going to have me to do..don't take anymore gonal f tonight or tomorrow (mon, tue) and go back in for an us on wed morning and see if some of the smaller ones fizzled out and the bigger ones matured..if so then hopefully i can take my ovadril shot and then timed bding and then wait for our bfp **hopefully**

but if not and alot of them grew then we will have to just cancle this cycle and start fresh next month...and i don't wanna do that what so ever...because gonal f is very very spendy!!  so i just want 2-3 mature follicles and  to make 1 or 2 babies and get my bfp and leo and i become that so hard to ask for?!?
ugh kinda body is dumb!!

Sunday, May 20, 2012

hsg test from H.E.L.LOOOO!!

oK!! i have not updated since i had my hsg test on friday and my e2 blood test
My E2 test was great it was 123 so it was good!

Ok my hsg test turned out good...but was horrible!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so i was scared enough to get this test done...but i will never do it again!!!!!!!!!!!
so they cath you and then put a blue dye threw your tubes...omg it hurts hurts hurts and burns..i was clamping onto the table and yelling it hurts, it hurts, it hurts..and between almost passing out and throwing up..I WAS IN PAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so i had to do 3 more days of shots...and tomorrow i get an ultrasound done on Monday to check out my follies and measure them to see if i have any that are mature!! keeping fingers crossed :) 
also i found a BIG 4 leaf clover today..that means good luck right?? maybe this is my month..maybe i will get my big fat positive!!!  :)

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Random & Bored..........


The two pink lines.
We so want to see.

The early morning temps we do everyday
Please God give me a baby we pray.

We fool our minds thinking this is our time.
But each month our hope slowly dies.

Our friends and family try to understand our pain.
But their encouraging words dont help us stay sain.

We hear just relax it will happen for you.
But they dont know the pain we go thru

The pills and the shots dont make us feel so good.
And we arent always in a happy mood.

So if you know someone who is on the TTC baby train
Dont try to fix our problems just try to understand our pain.

By:Mommy Dearest


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Wounder what some of the crazy lingo means that us ttc use? well here are some of them!!!!

TTC Lingo - Learn TTC Acronyms and Abbreviations

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TTC ~ Trying to Conceive

AF ~ Aunt Flow (period)

AHI ~ At-Home Insemination

AI ~ Artificial Insemination

AID ~ Artificial Insemination from Donor

AIH ~ Artificial Insemination from Husband

AO ~ Anovulation

BD ~ Baby Dance

BBT ~ Basal Body Temperature

BCP ~ Birth Control Pills

Beta, beta hCG ~ Serum Pregnancy Test: qualitative (yes/no) or quantitative (numeric level)

BG ~ Blood Glucose

BSE ~ Breast Self-Exam

BTB ~ Break Through Bleeding

BW, b/w ~ Blood work

BOB ~ Baby on the Brain, Baby Obsessed Brain

BFN ~ Big Fat Negative

BFP ~ Big Fat Positive

CY# ~ Cycle Number

CCCT ~ Clomiphene Citrate Challenge Test (Clomid Challenge)

CD ~ Cycle Day

CF ~ Cervical Fluid

CM ~ Cervical Mucus

CNM ~ Certified Nurse Midwife

COH ~ Controlled Ovarian Hyper stimulation

CP ~ Cervical Position

DH ~Dearest Husband

DD ~ Darling Daughter

DP ~ Darling Partner

DS ~ Darling Son

D&C ~ Dilation and Curettage

D&E ~ Dilation and Evacuation

DE ~ Donor Eggs

DI ~ Donor Insemination

DPO ~ Days Past Ovulation

Dx ~ Diagnosis

DTD ~ Do the Deed

E2 ~ Estradiol (Estrogen)

EB, EMB ~ Endometrial Biopsy

EDC ~ Expected Date of Confinement (Due Date)

EDD ~ Estimated Due Date

ENDO ~ Endometriosis

EPT ~ Early Pregnancy Test

ERT ~ Estrogen Replacement Therapy

EW ~ Egg White

EWCF ~ Eggwhite Cervical Fluid

EWCM ~ Eggwhite Cervical Mucus

FP ~ Follicular Phase

FHR ~ Follicle Stimulating Hormone

FMU ~ First Morning Urine

FM ~ Fertility Monitor

GP ~ General Practitioner

HCG, HCG ` Human Chronic Gonadotropin

HCP ~ Health Care Practitioner

HPT ~ Home Pregnancy Test

HRT ~ Hormone Replacement Therapy

HSC ~ Hysteroscopy

HSG ~ Hysterosalpingogram

HTH ~ Hope that helps

IF ~ Infertility

IM ~ Intra-Muscular (injections)

IVF ~ In Vitro Fertilization

IUI ~ Inter Uterine Insemination

KWIM ~ Know what I mean?

LAP ~ Laparoscopy

LH ~ Luteinzing Hormone

LMP ~ Last Menstrual Period (1st day of red flow)

LP ~ Luteal Phase

2WW ~ 2 Week Wait (luteal phase)

LSP ~ Low Sperm Count

MC, m/c ~ Miscarriage

MF ~ Male Factor

NP ~ Nurse Practitioner

O, OV ~ Ovualtion

OB ~ Obstetrician

OB/GYN ~ Obstetrician/Gynecologist

OC ~ Oral Contraceptives

OCP ~ Oral Contraceptive Pill

OD ~ Ovulatory Dysfunction

OHSS ~ Ovarian Hyperstimulation Syndrome

OPK ~ Ovulation Predictor Kit

OPT ~ Ovulation Predictor Test

OTC ~ Over The Counter

P4 ~ Progesterone

PA ~ Physicians Assistant

PCAP ~ Polycystic Appearing Ovaries

PCO ~ Polycystic Ovaries

PCOD ~ Polycystic Ovary Disease

PCOS ~ Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome

PCP ~ Primary Care Physician

PCT ~ Postcoital Test

PG ~ Pregnant

PI ~ Primary Infertility

PID ~ Pelvic Inflammatory Disease

PMS ~ Premenstrual Syndrome

POC ~ Products of Conception

RE ~ Reproductive Endocrinologist

RI ~ Reproductive Immunologist

RPL ~ Recurrent Pregnancy Loss

Rx ~ Prescription

SA ~ Semen Analysis

S/b, SB Stillbirth

SI ~ Secondary Infertility

SO ~ Significant Other

TTC ~ Trying to conceive

TL ~ Tubal Ligation

TR ~ Tubal Reversal

Tx ~ Treatment

TIA ~ Thanks in advance

TAB ~ Taking A Break

TMI ~ Too Much Information

UR ~ Urologist

US, u/s ~ Ultrasound

UTI ~ Urinary Tract Infection

V ~ Vasectomy

VR ~ Vasectomy Reversal

day 1 & 2 of shots done.........

Started my Gonal F on Tuesday May 15th at 187.5 and today Wed May 16th i did 150.0 they wanted to fluctuate the difference each week because i over stimulated before, So Thursday will be 187.5 and then Friday Bloodwork/ hsg test...yippie skippie ""not""

Well today was a busy day...but good day!
what did i do?
1) grocery shopped
2) cleaned out part of the garage
3) helped hubby take the boat out of the garage
4) cleaned some of the boat out
5) made dinner

so it was a pretty great day!! Also im so excited to get the boat out! Last year it just sat in the garage all year long...didn't take it out at all last year :( sad times....But we are going to take it out soon!! ** i hope, fingers crossed **

Monday, May 14, 2012

sun & mon = great days!

wow..has the last two days been busy!!
Yesterday was mothers day and went spend the day at my moms house..had a small cookout had
*hot dogs
*potato salad

*macaroni salad
*Oreo pudding poke cake
and great company! the weather was beautiful so we got to enjoy the great outdoors!

Today was a fantastic day!
I picked up my Nephew Blaze at 1030ish and then we headed to my friend Alicias House and she has 2 beautiful kids Logan & Elizabeth..and we packed everyone in the car and headed to the oxbo park/zoo

we had a picknic and the kids played and played...then we went to the free zoo!! and they loved the animals and ran around like crazy...the smallest ones "blaze and elizabeth" passed out in like 4 min of leaving the zoo

..they were so tired...But it was so fun..also great company and beautiful weather.
Alicia and i are going to plan a girls night up to Treasure Island some weekend soon..her and i and some relaxing just all around girl time!! Im excited!!!

Ok! So today is day two of my i get to start My gonal F shots tommorw!! Im kinda excited i feel great about this round...all i can do is pray and hope!! **fingers crossed**
So....were doing something a little diffrent this round were switching my doseage from up to down to up again...

Fri-bloodwork/hsg test

So i will get my blood work done on friday before 9am
then i have my hsg test at 1 on friday..



A hysterosalpingogram (HSG) is an X-ray test that looks at the inside of the uterus and fallopian tubes and the area around them. It often is done for women who are having a hard time becoming pregnant (infertile).
During a hysterosalpingogram, a dye (contrast material) is put through a thin tube that is put through the vagina and into the uterus. Because the uterus and the fallopian tubes are hooked together, the dye will flow into the fallopian tubes. Pictures are taken using a steady beam of X-ray (fluoroscopy) as the dye passes through the uterus and fallopian tubes. The pictures can show problems such as an injury or abnormal structure of the uterus or fallopian tubes, or a blockage that would prevent an egg moving through a fallopian tube to the uterus. A blockage also could prevent sperm from moving into a fallopian tube and joining (fertilizing) an egg. A hysterosalpingogram also may find problems on the inside of the uterus that prevent a fertilized egg from attaching (implanting) to the uterine wall. See a picture of a hysterosalpingogramcamera.

Why It Is Done

A hysterosalpingogram is done to:
  • Find a blocked fallopian tube. The test often is done for a woman who is having a hard time becoming pregnant. An infection may cause severe scarring of the fallopian tubes and block the tubes, preventing pregnancy. Occasionally the dye used during a hysterosalpingogram will push through and open a blocked tube.
  • Find problems in the uterus, such as an abnormal shape or structure, an injury, polyps, fibroids, adhesions, or a foreign object in the uterus. These types of problems may cause painful menstrual periods or repeated miscarriages.
  • See whether surgery to reverse a tubal ligation has been successful.

Examples of what they are looking for

Figure 1 is an X-ray of contrast material moving normally from the uterus up through the fallopian tubes toward the ovaries. Figure 2 shows a blocked fallopian tube on one side.

So thats how things are looking...lets hope for the best!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i will keep everyone up dated!

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Mothers Day is here....Now What....?!!?!!?

**First and For most, Happy Mothers Day to my beautiful strong amazing Mother**
Happy Mothers Day to all the Moms, Moms with angels, TTC lady's

Mothers Day is here...What now?!? Do i sit and cry all day? do i sit and just do a pity party? do i just throw my hands up and say I'm done? Do i feel sorry for myself? Do i hate the world?

I am going to TRY my best to have a beautiful day just like any other day!!

Here is why...

1) i have the most amazing mother to be thank full for and to celebrate today
2) i have the most amazing sisters and grandmother to be thank full for and to celebrate
3) i have 2 amazing nephews who i am very thank full to spend my day with today and who would not be in this world if it wasn't for my sisters
4) i get to spend all day with my family having a nice cookout
5) the weather is beautiful and the birds are chirping
6) because i know i am a mother, i care for others and really does being a mom mean caring for your own child? YES i want more then to have my own child but...i KNOW that will happen someday!!
7) i get to spend the entire day with my husband who got me a rose plant yesterday
8) i truly am blessed for life and being hear on earth
9) we get to eat good food!
10) because i can't give up!!!

Am i sad that i am not carrying a child or that i don't have a child? YES! I do have my angel baby(s) who i will carry forever in my heart!! but im tired of being sad im tired of being depressed...truly im tired of the test the poke the heartache...but i know deep down i will be a mother.......In time being i have 3 amazing nephews and 1 joy full outgoing little niece..who i love with all my heart and sole that my body could give them!!

I hope everyone has a blessed day!!!

I just recived this poem from my aunt..made me cry...but it was very beautiful i had to share it!

"The Busiest Day In Heaven"

It's the busiest day in Heaven
I'm planning a big surprise
To let you know I love you
And that no one ever dies

Even though your down below
And I am up above
I'm sending you my wishes
And all my angel love

It's really quite exciting
To plan this big event
For lots of gifts will come your way
And all are Heaven sent

First I'll take a bubble bath-
My splashes might cause some rain
But knowing all the fun I'm having
Will help to ease your pain

Next I'll get some pictures
In my halo and gown
So when you get to Heaven
You can show me all around

I have color crayons in Heaven
And I will draw some stars so bright
And place them in the sky today
For you to see tonight

Then Jesus will have story time
And I will sit upon his lap
He'll tell me all about you
Just before I nap

I'll awake full of energy
And play a game or two
Before I finish sending
All my love to you

After snack I'll write a song
For all the birds to sing
And know I've made you happy
With all the joy it brings

At night time I'll be tired
But I'll still hold you tight
My arms will wrap around you
And keep you through the night

And when you finally slumber
I will kneel and pray
Asking God to bless you
On this special Mothers Day

Your Little Angel odd little note for everyone to know...I will be starting my Gonal-F shots on Tuesday and hopefully getting a hsg test done anywhere from this fri to sometime next week...and then hopefully taking a pregnacy test tometime the 1st week in june... lets hope we get a bfp for our 8yr annv!

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

mothers day......empty arms again... :(

so mothers day is arriving very quickly and im not looking forward to it what so ever..This would have been my 1st mothers day that i had a baby(s) in my belly.. however they were takekn away from us to soon and they are looking down on us...i have the most amazing mother in the world that im so thankfull for..and 2 beautiful amazing sisters who are fantastic moms and my grandmother who i love to death....but mothers day is always hard for me...i want something from a child or a card from my husband...but once again... nothing...besides a broken heart...and it makes me sad...becaue there are many many woman that will sit in silance on this day and just die inside...please rememer to be nice to everyone on mothers day as for you don't know there journey and what is going on in there lives!!

How to Handle Mother's Day... When You're Trying to Conceive

If you've been trying to get pregnant, but have not yet conceived, Mother's Day can be an emotional reminder of what you don't yet have in your life. We get it—many of us have been there, too. Here are seven ideas to help you enjoy your day...
Get out of dodge. Change up your environment and take a weekend getaway. Plan your trip in advance—this way you'll have something to look forward to instead of dreading the upcoming holiday. Your focus will be on your new adventure—dreaming about the future instead of thinking about the past. And consider this extra bonus: A trip that features some serious R&R can be a great way to get pregnant—think of it as a "procreation vacation."
Please your palate. Just for one day, store all your super-healthy eating habits away in the cabinet next to those rice cakes and live it up at bit. While trying to conceive, perhaps you've been focusing on nutritious foods, plenty of water, and never missing a day of your prenatal vitamins. But today is a day to eat and drink whatever you want. Have your partner make you something special—and don't skimp on the good stuff! Go for the butter, chocolate, wine … you name it! Plus, enjoying a meal in the comfort of your own home will help you avoid restaurants serving Mother's Day brunches.
Pamper yourself. Yes, you deserve it. Time spent trying to get pregnant can be taxing on your body and on your mind. Get a massage, get a manicure, get a new haircut, get some new makeup—just get out of the house and get to the pampering!
Steer clear of card shops. Really, just don't go there.
Go to the movies. Go see a comedy in the middle of the day and laugh your buns off. Heck, see two in a row. As they say, laughter is the best medicine. Be sure to choose one that's appropriate only for adults—no kids allowed!
Head outdoors. On Mother's Day, go celebrate with the greatest Mama of all: Mother Nature. Hang out at the beach, take a hike the woods, swim in the ocean, or bike along your favorite trail. Nature has a knack for getting us out of our heads and into a different frame of mind. Plus, you most likely won't see big balloons or banners screaming "Happy Mother's Day" in the great outdoors.
Present yourself with a present. Either buy one for yourself, or flat out tell you partner that you'd like something special. Why? Because although you may not have a baby in your arms this Mother's Day, you're been putting out some serious mother energy in trying to conceive, so you deserve some recognition on this day as well.
So, whether you've been trying the old-fashioned way (leaving it up to fate) or have been exploring fertility treatments, whether you've been trying for three years or three months, whether you've always dreamed of being a mom or have just felt the pull in the recent past, you too deserve something special this Mother's Day.

Monday, May 7, 2012

Its been awhile....

Hello Everyone!! Its been awhile since i wrote. My mom computer crashed and i borrowed her my laptop :)...I do have a desktop computer also however i hate using that during my blogging i like siting and relaxing and letting my ideas and information flow.......... haha.....
So National Infertility Week has came and gone so i didn't get to do my blogs each day but i will post some more Information blogs sometime in the near future...
So what has been going on your wondering?

Well i have started my provera Im on day 7 out of 10 days..I hate provera it makes me feel like im hungry all the time and it makes me emotional but i will handle it...Im strong its not the 1st time iv been on it...Provera help bring on a period...And when that arrives i will be getting a HSG test done and i will be starting my Gonal-F shots again..Yippie so much to look forward to in the next few weeks... N.O.T!!!!  However i hope it will bring our Big Fat Positive!!!! Leo had his seman analysas done and it turned out all we can do is hope and pray my body will do the right thing now!! I also have been working hard on my weight it has jumped up again
lowest weight was 165 and i would love love love to get the low again
I was at 180.4 lbs
and today after a week im down to 178 so a few lbs lost...but i keep going at at! and i will be at my goal weight again!! So this is the little update that i have..and will keep everyone posted!!