Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Medications i have tryed....and will be useing again

Clomiphene Citrate - Clomid, Serophene *Did many rounds before my rny surgery and did a few rounds after rny and had no results*
If your basic infertility work-up indicates that you are not ovulating regularly or if you are ovulating very late or early in the cycle, your physician may suggest clomiphene citrate.

•Indications for use: In women, clomiphene is used to induce ovulation, to correct irregular ovulation, to help increase egg production, and to correct luteal phase deficiency.
•Dosage: Clomiphene comes in 50-mg tablets. The usual starting dose is one tablet on day 3, 4, or 5 of your cycle, and for 5 days afterward. Ovulation usually occurs on cycle day 13 to 18. If you do not ovulate, your physician may increase the dose in increments in future cycles; the maximum dose is usually 200mg daily. The American Society for Reproductive Medicine (ASRM) recommends that clomiphene be prescribed for three to six cycles only.

Gonal-f* This is what we got pregnant on and will be using again in January*® Multi-Dose is the only FSH available in convenient multiple-dose vials. Available as the Gonal-f® 1050 IU vial or Gonal-f® 450 IU vial, each dose offers important benefits:

•Both presentations of Gonal-f® Multi-Dose come with a prefilled diluent syringe, eliminating the extra step of preparing a diluent syringe.
•Each Gonal-f® Multi-Dose 1050 IU vial contains as much medicine as fourteen 75 IU single dose vials.
•Each Gonal-f® Multi-Dose 450 IU vial contains as much medicine as six 75 IU single dose vials.
Why Gonal-f® Multi-Dose is used
For Women
•Gonal-f® (follitropin alfa for injection) is used for the induction of ovulation and pregnancy in the anovulatory infertile patient in whom the cause of infertility is functional and not due to primary ovarian failure.
•Gonal-f® is also used for the development of multiple follicles in the ovulatory patient participating in an Assisted Reproductive Technologies (ART) program.
For Men
•Gonal-f® (follitropin alfa for injection) is used for the induction of spermatogenesis in men with primary and secondary hypogonadatropic hypogonadism in whom the cause of infertility is not due to primary testicular failure.
Ask your healthcare provider if Gonal-f® is right for you.

Important Safety Information: Gonal-f® can cause serious side effects including ovarian hyperstimulation syndrome (OHSS), with or without lung or blood vessel problems and multiple births.

The most common side effects observed with the use of Gonal-f® include headache, breast pain, ovarian cysts, upset stomach, sinus infections in women, and skin pimples, breast pain and growth and tiredness in men. Needle injections may cause some discomfort. For complete product details, see the Full Prescribing Information.

You should review with your Fertility Specialist the risks and benefits of using Gonal-f®. As with any medication, report any and all side effects, symptoms or physical changes to your healthcare provider.

Progesterone* Use these after i finished my gonal-f shots*
Progesterone is a natural hormone which is given after ovulation to improve the quality of the uterine lining. It can be taken by mouth, by vaginal suppository, gel or by intramuscular injection. Discover the vital connection between progesterone and pregnancy

What is Ovidrel (Human chorionic gonadotropin (HCG) (injectable))?
>*Did one shot of ovidrel after our round of gonal f shots..helped up get pregnant*
Human chorionic gonadotropin (HCG) is a hormone that supports the normal development of an egg in a woman’s ovary, and stimulates the release of the egg during ovulation.

HCG is used to cause ovulation and to treat infertility in women, and to increase sperm count in men. HCG is also used in young boys when their testicles have not dropped down into the scrotum normally. This can be caused by a pituitary gland disorder.

HCG may also be used for purposes other than those listed in this medication guide.

How should I take Ovidrel (Human chorionic gonadotropin (HCG) (injectable))?
Use HCG exactly as your doctor has prescribed it for you. Do not use more of the medication than recommended. Do not use HCG for longer than your doctor has prescribed.

HCG is given as an injection into a muscle. If you use this medicine at home, your doctor, nurse, or pharmacist will give you specific instructions on how and where to inject this medicine. Do not give yourself an injection if you do not understand these instructions. Call your doctor, nurse, or pharmacist for help with injection instructions.

Use each needle and syringe only one time. With your medicine you will receive a puncture-proof container for used needles and syringes. If you do not receive a container, ask your pharmacist for one. Keep this container out of the reach of children and pets. Your pharmacist can tell you how to properly dispose of the container.

To be sure this medication is helping your condition, your doctor will need to check you on a regular basis. It is important that you not miss any scheduled visits to your doctor.

Some brands of HCG come in powder form with a separate liquid that you must mix together and draw into a syringe. Other brands are provided in single-dose prefilled syringes.

Do not use the medication if it has changed colors or the liquid has any particles in it. Call your doctor for a new prescription.

Store unmixed HCG at room temperature away from light, moisture, and heat.

After mixing the HCG, you must keep it in the refrigerator until you are ready for your injection. Throw away any mixed medicine that you have not used within 30 days after mixing.

Medroxyprogesterone(me drox' ee proe jes' te rone)
(Provera)* Take this to help bring on a period*

Medroxyprogesterone is used to treat abnormal menstruation (periods) or irregular vaginal bleeding. Medroxyprogesterone is also used to bring on a normal menstrual cycle in women who menstruated normally in the past but have not menstruated for at least 6 months and who are not pregnant or undergoing menopause (change of life). Medroxyprogesterone is also used to prevent overgrowth of the lining of the uterus (womb) and may decrease the risk of cancer of the uterus in patients who are taking estrogen. Medroxyprogesterone is in a class of medications called progestins. It works by stopping the growth of the lining of the uterus and by causing the uterus to produce certain hormones.

Types of Infertility..Female & Male

This is when lining from your uterus is found outside of your uterus. Endometriosis mainly affects women in their 30s to 40s and about 40% of women with endometriosis will have some problems conceiving. The main cause of infertility from endometriosis seems to be scarring and adhesions that result in a blockage. This prevents the egg from being fertilized or the fertilized egg from traveling properly along the fallopian tubes. This can result in an ectopic pregnancy (this is when the fertilized egg implants itself somewhere other than in the uterine lining). However, there are some other theories as to how infertility is caused by endometriosis.

Endometriosis can be treated with surgery. If you experience pain while having sex, have very painful menstrual cramps, and/or experience heavy bleeding during your period or unusual spotting, you may have endometriosis. However, about 30% of women with endometriosis will never show any symptoms except for fertility problems.

Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS)
The bad news about PCOS is that it is one of the main causes of infertility among women yet is severely under diagnosed (less than 25% of women who suffer from the syndrome have actually been diagnosed). One of the main reasons that it is not diagnosed is because symptoms of the syndrome generally do not appear to have any connection with each other. Usually it's not until a woman has troubles getting pregnant and she gets professional help that she learns she has PCOS. Some symptoms of PCOS include weight gain, acne, irregular or absent periods, infertility, and failure to ovulate. PCOS can be diagnosed through a series of blood tests. It can easily be managed through the use of hormones that will trigger ovulation and will also help you get pregnant.

Ovulatory Disorders
About 40% of female fertility problems are caused by ovulation problems such as irregular periods or failing to ovulate at all. These disorders can be caused by a variety of things such as excessive weight loss, stress, thyroid problems or hormone imbalances. The way the disorder is treated depends on the cause.

Premature Ovarian Failure (POF)
This can be a very upsetting diagnosis as it means that you are no longer menstruating even though you are under the age of 40. Causes of POF can range from defects from before birth (like a chromosomal abnormality that results in defective ovaries) to your ovaries becoming resistant to your body's natural hormones when you are in your 20s and 30s. Pelvic surgery, chemotherapy, and radiation have also been known to result in POF. In very few cases, POF is present in a woman's family history.

You can also experience intermittent ovarian failure. Women who are affected by this will go for months with no period and then suddenly begin to menstruate again for a short time. As well, her hormone levels may appear normal while she is menstruating. If she were to seek treatment during this time, it would appear as though everything were fine with her ovaries, thereby making it difficult to diagnose her with intermittent ovarian failure. Treatment of POF can be difficult. You may try hormone pills in order to promote ovulation but this is often not successful. Another option is IVF with a donor egg that is fertilized by your partner's sperm.

Uterine Factors
This category encompasses problem you may have with your uterus. If you have gone for fertility testing, you will probably receive a specific diagnosis as to just what the problem is. Some possible factors that can affect your uterine and your ability to conceive include uterine fibroids, uterine didelphys (this when you a born with a uterus that is made up of two parts with a wall dividing them), a complete lack of a uterus, scar tissue in the uterus or exposure to DES in the womb (DES was a drug given to pregnant women up until the late 1960s. Children born to women who took this drug often had defects, one of which is an irregularly shaped uterus). Depending on just what the problem is, different treatments may be recommended.

Multiple Miscarriages
Suffering from a miscarriage is always difficult, but suffering from one when you have been trying for months to get pregnant can be truly upsetting. While the main cause of miscarriage is genetic defects with the fetus, miscarriage can also be caused by problems with the uterus or cervix, unusual hormone levels, or infections or toxins in your environment. If you have been trying to conceive and have suffered multiple miscarriages, book yourself an appointment with your health care provider or geneticist. The miscarriages could be your first hint of fertility problems that need to be investigated.

Luteal Phase Defect (LPD)
This can be caused by two things both involving your body's progesterone development. The first cause of LPD is attributed to your ovaries not secreting enough progesterone. The second reason could be that your endometrium is not responding to the progesterone stimulation. Either way, the end result is that the endometrium is not properly prepared for pregnancy, thereby causing either fertility problems or an early miscarriage. If you have been found to have LPD, you will most likely receive some form of stimulants or hormones, which will help in developing the endometrium.

Male Factor
It is estimated that 40% of infertility problems are due to problems with the man. Although this may take some pressure off of you, remember that, for many men, being told that they have fertility problems can cause a great deal of anxiety and upset about their abilities as a man. While you may be unable to conceive because of your partner, keep in mind that this is an issue you both must deal with, not just him.

So, what are some of the reasons that cause men to be infertile? Well, they may have a blockage somewhere along their reproductive tract that prevents sperm from making its way to you. Your partner could also have fertility problems producing sperm or ejaculating or it may be that there is some disorder (like a low sperm count) that is preventing the sperm from reaching its destined target. Depending on what the exact problem is, your health care provider may suggest surgery or hormones to improve your chances of becoming pregnant.

Unexplained Infertility
This may be one of the most aggravating things to hear if you are having troubles conceiving. Yes, even after going through all sorts of tests to figure out what is wrong, one in five couples will be told that their infertility is unexplainable. This doesn't mean that there isn't a reason for your fertility problems. Rather, the tests available today are not able to identify just what the problem is. But what does this mean for you? That's hard to say.

You can explore the different fertility treatment options or just keep trying and hope for the best. If your fertility problems can't be identified, talk with your health care provider as well as you partner as to what the best course of action may be for you.

Other Diagnoses
Poor Responder
Women who have been going through fertility treatments that involve medication to stimulate ovulation and have had no luck may fall into this category. If you find yourself in this situation, then it indicates that you require a higher dosage of stimulation medication yet you may still have a negative outcome. If you have been considering IVF, try having an ovarian reserve test done beforehand. Women who do not respond well to fertility drugs are often not very successful at conceiving through IVF. Having an ovarian reserve test performed may help you save time, money and stress by letting you know if you are a suitable candidate for IVF. If you are a suitable candidate, then you and your health care provider may want to try different kinds of stimulant medications to see which one you respond best to. If you are a 'poor responder,' then make sure you are receiving treatment from a facility that has experience with other women who have been diagnosed as poor responders. This will help ensure that you get the best care designed just for you.

Secondary Infertility
You and your partner have already had a child or two and now you are trying again but with no luck. But you're not infertile - you've already had children! Infertility can strike at any point in your life. Just because you have had a child with no problems does not guarantee that all future children will be conceived with ease. If you are experiencing fertility problems after already having at least one child, then you are considered to be experiencing secondary infertility. This is actually more common than primary infertility (fertility problems experienced by those people who have never had a child), yet is often ignored or not recognized as a problem. While fertility problems can cause stress in a relationship, secondary infertility can really take its toll on a couple. It is important to keep communication open between you and your partner so that you both know what each other wants, hopes for and is willing to do (or not do) to become parents again.

While it may be hard to deal with the issue of infertility, facing it head on is the first step in achieving your dream of having a child. There are many treatments and medications available today that can help you out that may not be as expensive as you thought. Be sure to read up on all the possibilities so that you and your partner can decide what is best for both of you.

Few Poems

A Child To Love
You can have your wealth and riches.
All the things so many seek;
position, power, and success,
the fame you long to keep.
You can earn as much as you wish,
reach a status high above
But none of these can equal
having one sweet child to love
'Tis the greatest gift form heaven,
little arms that hold you tight,
And a kiss so soft and gentle
when you tuck them in at night.
A million precious questions and
each story often read,
Two eyes so bright and smiling,
and a darling tousled head.
God has never matched the goodness
of a trusting little face,
Or a heart so full of laughter
spreading sunshine every place.
A child to hold and cuddle,
'tis a gift from God above,
And the world is so much brighter
when you have a child to love
Author Unknown


Hey you, you're a child in my head
You haven't walked yet
Your first words are yet to be said
But i swear you'll be blessed

I know you're still just a dream
Your eyes might be green
Or the bluest that I've ever seen
Anyway you'll be blessed

And you'll be blessed
You'll have the best
I promise you that
I'll pick a star from the sky
Pull your name from a hat
I promise you that
You'll be blessed

I need you before Im to old
To have and to hold
To walk with you and watch you grow
And know that you are blessed

random rants

So iv been pretty busy..and i enjoy being busy and spending time with my family! I need to finish cleaning however my back is killing so i'm sitting on the couch with ice on it...Hurts pretty I'm sitting here trying to relax and watch Grey's Antaomy because i love that show!

Spending the last 2 days with Blaze has made me relize i'm so ready to be a mom. Feeding and giving a bath and rocking and loving him. I can't wait till i get my turn to do that. I am very lucky to have 3 amazing nephews and 1 neice. I may not have a million dollar house, or a ton of money but i have the most amazing loving husband and we have all the love in the world and i want anything more then for us to be parents! I know January is getting closer and closer for us to start shots...But the question is will we have the money? I am stressing out about the money...i know money isn' evenything but when it comes to your hopes and dreams of becoming a mother and you need money to make that happens it will stress you out!!

I am very proud of my husband for doing everything in his power and will to make a 1$ at the moment.Work is slow... I could go back to work i'm sure alot of you are saying..just work teresa...i could...however is it work the stress? the 1 hour drive there and back? half your paycheck going towards gas? there is alot to it..if the job was closer even in winona i would take the job in a heartbeat...

Im pretty excited to start treatment again in Jan however i'm scared....

I am very excited for Christmas!! I can't wait to watch Blaze open his gifts he is such a happy little boy he makes everyone so happy. And Colton he will just be snuggled and loved by everyone he won't really understand christmas this year...but having them both here and home and healthy is a blessing!!!

Iv gained about 8lbs and my goal is to get it off by January 1st when i start my medication...and I WILL get this weight off..i'm going to try this new diet called the 17 day diet. Leo's mom and sister have been doing it and both have lost weight...So lets hope i wanna get back down to my lowest weight again and be healthy..I'm such a stress eatter i hate it...but i know i do it...

well have a good wed everyone!!

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Busy Tuesday.....

Today was a busy day! I watched Blaze man! From 11am till 8ish.It was fun, We had a yummy lunch and he took 2 great naps..he ate a ton of dinner, took a bath and played and player and played..He is so fun and funny!I also helped my mom out and cleaned some of the frontroom and did dishes. I love being around him! I also got to squeez in some snuggle time with Colton before he left to go visit greatgrandma today. I was kinda of crabby and stressed leo is going on his 2nd week of no is tight as it is...but he is doing the best he can do and he is been busy around the house...I wish money would grow on trees..or i wish life would give us a break...because im tired of how things go sometimes...but yet you have these rich snobby people who don't need all there makes me sick...ugh anywho...this is going to be short..
have a good night will write more on Wed..

Monday, November 28, 2011

Ovulaton or not Ovulation

Ok...Odd topic i know...however I have nevered "O" on my own since i pretty much have an ovulation disorder...But i did take an ovulation test last night and i'm pretty sure it said i did..however it does say in the instructions that if you have pcos that you can get false answers...stupid pcos...well maybe this with be our lucky month and we won't need fertility meds...psshh..i'm sure we won't get that lucky nothing ever happens that easy for me!!!!

how did sunday go? fun Saturday..

I have/hate to admit but this Sunday wasn't as bad as i was dreading..Lol
Leo and i had a nice breakfast..came home was lazy..made some deviled eggs and was lazy some more and then went to his parents. That was Fun i guess..Jimmy and Helen are getting so big, Jimmy is starting to walk and say a few works he loves to go"moo" Helen tought him that one! Helen she is smart as a whip she picks up on anything! Also i feel sorry for her. Her dad is such a pain and yells at her for the dumbst things..Really, i mean he was yelling at her because she was done having dinner her belly was full and she wanted to play. He said she need to sit up and visit my god she is 3 years old not 13! It was great visiting with Jessica and June and Jim..

So i didn't get to blog about Saturday, But i went and seen Breaking Dawn with my sister Marie a very good movie!! We went to Green mill and had lunch and then did some xmas shopping..more window shopping then anything but thats always fun when you have good company with you. I enjoyed our talks and our many laughts we had.. I really enjoyed my weekend!

On to this weekday!

Going to Rochester with my momma here in a little while. Going to swing into my old work and grab a few things and say hi! Then back home. Tuesday get to watch Blaze man! He is always a joy to be around...and Wed i have a chirpractor appt with my granny so i will spend time with her. and Thursday and Friday not so sure yet!!

Have a great week everyone

Sunday, November 27, 2011

10 Suprising Fertility Facts

You're most fertile before you ovulate.
Believe it or not, in addition to the day you actually ovulate, you’re most likely to get pregnant if you have sex in the five days or so before. Here’s why: Once the egg leaves your ovary, your guy’s sperm has about 12 to 24 hours to get to it for conception to happen. But sperm can actually remain viable inside you for several days or even weeks after you two actually get it on. So to put it bluntly, the more swimmers you’ve got in there ahead of time, the higher your odds are of making a baby.

Tight shorts = a sperm’s worst enemy.
When the scrotum’s cooped up in clothing that’s too tight, even a one-degree increase in body temp can reduce sperm production. Which means if your guy chronically sports short shorts or tightie whities, you officially have a good reason to tell him it’s time to ditch them. Make sure his boys are at a cool 94- to 96-degree F temp and always in loose clothing.

Your sense of smell skyrockets when you’re ovulating.
Yup, you read that right. If you’ve been smelling funny things all day, it could mean it’s prime baby-making time. So instead of complaining about his overwhelming BO after he hits the gym, maybe take it as a cue to roll around in the sack -- pronto. (Okay, after he showers.)

Channeling your inner yogi could boost your fertility chances.
In a Harvard study, 55 percent of women who participated in mind and body programs got pregnant, compared to 20 percent who didn’t practice. Without a doubt, a stress-free life aids in conception, so deepen that Pigeon pose and embrace your Warrior One.

You only have a 15-percent chance of conceiving each month.
We know how it is -- when you’ve been TTC for awhile, it’s hard not to notice all the pregnant women who seem to be sprouting up everywhere. But the fact is, couples in their thirties having unprotected sex only have a 15-percent chance of conceiving each month, and it usually takes about eight months until you get a BFP. (One study also claimed that most couples have sex about 104 times before seeing a positive pee stick.) So ignore the Octomoms out there, and keep the facts in mind before you get discouraged.

Clean teeth are a must.

Get this: If you have gum disease, it can actually lead to premature delivery and low birth weight in babies. Plus, poor oral hygiene even infects your guy’s sperm. So start flossing again, and if you haven’t been to the dentist in awhile, make an appointment, stat.

You’re (even more) sexy when you’re ovulating.
When British researchers asked a group of men to look through photos of 48 women and choose who they thought were the most beautiful, the results overwhelmingly showed men were more drawn to ovulating women. Most notably on their radar? The fuller lips, dilated pupils and softer skin tone of the women who were ovulating. Another factor in making you hotter during your O time: You tend to subconsciously dress sexier mid-cycle.

The Pill could actually help you get pregnant.
Aside from regulating your period, the Pill can lower your risk of uterine and ovarian cancers, making you much more likely to conceive without complications when you decide to try.

Watching porn makes his sperm more powerful. (Seriously.)
Whether you’re a fan of Jenna Jameson’s work or not, this may give you a whole new sense of appreciation for it: Research has found that men produce stronger sperm after they view heterosexual porn. Hmm…sushi and a movie night?

That nonfat latte isn’t such a smart choice after all.
Researchers found that one or more daily servings of full-fat dairy actually decreases the risk of infertility, while low-fat dairy products don’t have those helpful high levels of estrogen and progesterone hormones. In other words: say a guilt-free hello to your new best friends: Ben and Jerry.

Saturday, November 26, 2011

The Top Ten Things NOT To Say To Someone Experiencing Infertility

The Top Ten Things Not To Say To Someone Experiencing Infertility

(with bonus pithy commentary)

(1) You need to relax!

Of course, I was experiencing anxiety over this, but telling me that I need to relax sounds like you're blaming me. Infertility is a kind of illness, a malfunction of one of the body's systems, so please treat it that way. You wouldn't tell a cancer patient that she'll get well if she will "relax", would you?

(2) You should just adopt!

Adoption? Why, I've never heard of that! You say you can pay thousands and thousands of dollars, have every aspect of your life scrutinized, get put on a potentially years-long waiting list, and then possibly have the biological parent change her mind? Sign me up!

Seriously, though, this one really irks me. After two miscarriages and several years of infertility testing and treatment, we were tapped out physically, emotionally and financially.

It's not just some kind of checklist you go through

1.Try naturally: Check.
2.Go through testing: Check.
3.Clomid and timed intercourse: Check.
4.Injectables and IUI: Check.
5.IVF: Check.
6.Adoption: Check.
and only when you complete the checklist are you allowed to grieve your inability to have a child. No. No matter where you stop, you're still allowed to grieve.

After spending years trying to become pregnant, considering adoption is a complete switching of gears, and it's just not always possible to do that. Sometimes you just want it all to be over.

The fact that we didn't adopt doesn't mean that we really didn't want children enough. We decided to start a family for the same reasons most people do - we wanted to create a being that was a part of us. Is it selfish? Of course it is. But so what? Most people don't have to think twice about that.

Anyway, it is not the responsibility of infertile couples to take in all the unwanted children of the world. I am in awe of those who have chosen this path, but my heart just wasn't in it. I don't think one should do it under those circumstances. That doesn't seem terribly fair to anyone, especially the child.

And I wonder if couples who already have one or two of their own biological children and are considering having another ever have this suggested in such a dismissive way. After all, if anyone should consider adoption, it should be those who have already been blessed, right?

Look, it's just a very personal decision, and it's not the "answer" to every couple's infertility problem, nor is it the solution to world hunger and poverty.

(3) You want kids? Please, take mine!

Oh, I get it. Raising kids is hard! Thanks, but I think I already knew this. And besides, I don't want your kids. They're funny looking and rude (I'm kidding - your children are adorable). Also, you don't really mean this. You're just trying to be cute, and you're not succeeding.

(4) There's probably a reason for it.

Like, maybe, my child iss going to be the next Hitler or Manson? Something like that?

I do actually know the reason for one of my miscarriages. It was an abnormality resulting in a fetus with a genetic makeup that was "incompatible with life". (That's exactly the way it was phrased in the report. I find it kind of strangely poetic.) But, what was the reason behind that? It's simple: there is no reason for these things.

Would you ever tell a parent with a severely deformed child that there was a reason for it?

Sometimes bad stuff just happens, and that's that. At least that's the way I look at things. Please respect that.

(5) Oh, you're still young. It'll happen.

I'm not that young and how do you know it'll happen?

You are not clairvoyant. Don't give me false hope based on nothing more than your need to be "supportive".

(6) My cousin adopted a baby, and then one year later, boom, she was pregnant!

Well that's certainly a good reason to adopt, isn't it? I'm also pretty sure this doesn't always work. I can just hear the discussion now...

Joey: Mom and Dad, why did you adopt me?

Mom and Dad: Well, we really thought that, if we adopted a baby, then we'd get pregnant.

Joey: But I don't have a brother or a sister. So it didn't work, right?

Mom and Dad: No it didn't. But we've got you. And you're the next best thing! (Joey is now in therapy.)

(7) Have you tried accupuncture - meditation - standing on your head after sex, etc.?

Certainly not all at the same time! But, yes, believe me, we explored just about every avenue, be it based on medical science or on an old wives tale. We even went to a Chinese herbalist, who kept talking about "the house of the baby" (I assume he was referring to my uterus), and I spent two weeks drinking some sort of dark brown liquid twice a day that tasted like a combination of tree bark and liver. It made me want to throw up, which is the closest to pregnant I got with it!

(8) I wish I had that problem!

So you're...what? Hyperfertile? There are things you can take for that, you know. Now please go away before your water breaks on my carpet.

(9) There are too many people in the world anyway.

Thank you Mr. Malthus! I fully realize this, and I promise that, if I'm lucky enough to have one, I'll immediately kill myself so it'll all even out.

Besides, you should be talking to the Duggar family. They live in Tontitown, Arkansas, and they probably have their own page in the phone book.

(10) I think that people who have infertility treatments are selfish.

I am actually torn on this one. I did think it was kind of selfish when I was going through it. Selfish for me - I'd never judge someone else for it. It was also incredibly expensive and mostly not covered by insurance. I know that medical resources are a finite commodity, so, yes, I was conflicted. I went as far as considering IVF, but took one look at the procedure and knew that I just couldn't go through with it.

But is it only the treatment that's selfish, or the desire for a child in the first place? Frankly, I thought they were both selfish (again, for me), but it seems like it's only the infertile person who is "lucky" enough to hear this one.

In situations like this, here's a good rule of thumb: Not every opinion that is in your head needs to be voiced.


ever just dread a day coming??

I HATE SUNDAYS!! i know that might be funny to hear but..i do i hate them...the reason i hate them is because it would of made me 1 more week closer to our due date i was suppose to be in my 2nd trimester today...i should have some cute ultrasound pictures to show people and have proudly hanging all over my house...but i don't and sundays remind me of that..remind me im not pregnant and i lost our child..sundays make me wanna just lay in bed and pretend i will be ok even though deep down i just wanna cry...this sunday isn't going to be any better...i'm going to have my in-laws thanksgiving..don't get me wront i love them to death and i'm very blessed with amazing in-laws however..i know over some part of the night something will be brought up..or they will tell me how sorry they are for me and that it will happen and they will keep praying..a person can only hear that so much.. i am doing better i am taking each day at a time...i will make it threw this...some days are harder then others like Sundays...But i know i have a beautiful baby watching over me... I know someday i will be a mom...and knowing the fact in 2 months we could be pregnant exciting but also scares the hell out of me... No one should have to have a mc/or lose a child to one!!!
Have a great Sunday... i will try to make the best out of mine..since i'm up maybe i will sleep half of it way..or maybe wake up to some yummy breakfast or just.........i dunno...........wish it to go away....

Friday, November 25, 2011

Infertility Is..............

Prices of some infertility medication!

Insurance doesn't cover fertility medication...they however will cover some doctors appt
Some insurance companys see fertility treatment as cosmetic and not needed

Some of you may not know prices of treatments here are an idea of some

Bravelle 75 IU Vial (*Discount pricing requires enrollment in HEART program)urofollitropin for injection, purified $56.00
Cetrotide 0.25 MG cetrorelix acetate for injection $71.89
Cetrotide 3MGcetrorelix acetate for injection $359.00
Crinone 8% (per box of 15) Vag. Applicator progesterone gel $208.50
Endometrin 100 MG (each)(*Discount pricing requires enrollment in HEART program)progesterone $5.90
Gonal-f RFF Pen 300 IU (*Discount pricing requires enrollment by your doctor’s office in the GO Direct to Savings Program.)follitropin alfa injection $248.00
Gonal-f RFF Pen 450 IU (*Discount pricing requires enrollment by your doctor’s office in the GO Direct to Savings Program.)follitropin alfa injection $372.00
Gonal-f RFF Pen 900 IU (*Discount pricing requires enrollment by your doctor’s office in the GO Direct to Savings Program.)follitropin alfa injection $744.00
Gonal-f RFF 75 IU Vial (*Discount pricing requires enrollment by your doctor’s office in the GO Direct to Savings Program.)follitropin alfa for injection $62.00
Gonal-f Multi-Dose 450 IU Vial (*Discount pricing requires enrollment by your doctor’s office in the GO Direct to Savings Program.)follitropin alfa for injection $372.00
Gonal-f Multi-Dose 1050 IU (*Discount pricing requires enrollment by your doctor’s office in the GO Direct to Savings Program.)follitropin alfa for injection $868.00
Leuprolide Acetate 14-day kit Generic Lupron, 1mg per 0.2ml 2.8ml vial $129.00
Luveris 75 IU Viallutropin alfa for injection $25.00
Menopur 75 IU Vial (*Discount pricing requires enrollment in HEART program) menotropins for injection, USP $72.90
Novarel 10,000 IU Vial (*Discount pricing requires enrollment in HEART program)human chorionic gonadotropin for injection $67.00
Ovidrel Prefilled Syringe 250 mcg (*$30 handling fee to any order without a qualifying gonadotropin order or fertility medication for OI or IVF) choriogonadotropin alfa injection $65.00
Repronex 75 IU Vial menotropins for injection, USP $92.90

And this is normally All out of pocket exspence for couples

On top of the medication cost some couples have to do
IUI-that is any where from 300$-2000$ out of pocket cost most of the time up front paid
IVF rounds cost any where from 10,000-15,000 thats normaly 1 round of ivf!!

Infertility can be hard on copules due to the fact of all the sadness and money situations
but when couples try to do stuff to get help with treatments such as yard sales/ silent auctions/ fundraiser its all frowned on.. Its soo sad!!

2 week wait is over.....And all happens so fast

WE GOT OUR 1ST BFP(big fat positive)!!! We were in pure shock..yes shock, not happy go lucky not crying nothing...shock...i called and asked my mom if pregnancy test lie..she told me to go get another one so i did...and again a bfp!! At this point i was scared and so was leo...we did call and tell his parents and mine and my grandmother and a few friends...after almost 8yrs of trying you wanna tell everyone...bad idea nextime i will wait

i went into work and told all my co-works i was pregnant we were all happy and excited...i was having some cramping nothing to bad...just thought it was implantation cramps...and had some blood...wasn't to worried...until 2 days later..went into work. and i was bleeding alot...i left work with my  mom and went to the er and they did hcg leves and a us but couldn't find anything on a us and my hcg leves were pretty low.. pretty much the doc didn't tell me anything besides wait it out...
**here is what i wrote on facebook for all my friends/family to read**
Might as well just copy it instead of typing it twice

Well....since i have so many friends and family on here i though i would just tell it all...
The end of September i took a pregnancy test after our 1st round of shots... we got a big fast positive...ok many of them because i took alot of test...very excited...but i was only 3 1/2 -4 weeks confirmation from the doctor that we were pregnant... a few days later i started bleeding at work... i left work went into the er....they did blood work and hcg levels were 220...and nothing showed on us (just to early) doc said your hcg levels should be higher it looks like you could be i was sad very sad....i had to go back in for blood work 2 days later...hcg levels drooped to 170...then the doc said we want one more hcg level test in 2 days and most likely it will be 5 or below...well needless to say the test came back and hcg levels were 567 i was the doctor said you could still be could be a ectopic pregnancy, a blight ovum pregnant or you could of had been carrying twins and lost one...ok so i'm getting a little excited there is some blood work again 2 days later it was 876 good the doctor said... so...leo and i went in for a us on a friday and they seen 1 getnstational sack with a yok measuring perfect and another getstantional sack with no they said that could still form or just go we waited another week until we were 7 weeks and 2 days along had another us...they said we should be able to see the heart beat and that baby....well this was yesterday....and the devistation news happened...there was nothing no baby no heartbeat no broke my were not pregnant....i go in for a d&e on monday...this is going to be one of the hardest things ever...this was exactly what i didn't want to happen....its been a very hard and long emotional rollocoster not just for me but for leo..He is truly amazing been there by my side! I couldn't ask for a better husband or a better family or with that said......instead of keeping everyone in the dark...this is what is going don't be upset if i don't wanna go party, drink or really do anything... i am doing what i need to do for myself to keep myself going and to cope...

I had my D&E done on Oct was an in and out prosses...but it makes you feel empy and your just blank and you don't know what to think something is missing..and something was missing my unborn baby who was suppose to go full term..and be in my harms!!  It took about a week of being blah not wanting to be around anyone or talk or even cry...and bam everything hit me the loneliness of missing family and friends the fact that i'm childless i cryed..alot..i cryed during stupid times i cried when a song was on the radio...but i needed to...i had to...i couldn't keep it inside anymore,,,

So with all that said... Its almost been a month since that crushing news/doctors appt has happened... I am doing better and feeling better and getting out and doing more things. I however am no longer working my choice i know the money was great but i can't deal with the stress of driving to rochester every day and the stress of working in an infant room. I loved my job, i loved my co workers however just right now i can't do it.

I had an amazing Thanksgiving with my family we always have yummy food and good times...

Jan 1st of 2012 we will be on the road to TTC again.. i start my medication to give me a period and we will go from there..
I scared to get pregnant again i want everything to turn out fine. I will only tell leo's parents my parents and grandmother that we are pregnant... i will not tell anyone else until we are alot alot alot farther along....

But i jut got to hope for the best and stay positive!!

Doctors appts and shots!!

We got our 1 month of free medication in my hand and i was soo excited... i started my pills that gave me a period and on day 1 of my cycle i called my nurse and i had to come in for blood work and an us to make sure my body was doing what it was suppose to do.. well everything looked great...still had a few cyst on my ovaries...but that's normal for someone who has they said call back on day 3 of my cycle so i did..and they started me on 150 for my shots did 3 days of that...then back for blood body wasn't really reacting very well to the medication so they upped it to 165 did a few days of that then did more blood work and us things were looking better still didn't have any mature eggs and that was about 6 days into shots then they upped to 185.5 did 4 days of that and was in and out of the doctor many of times for us and blood work i finally had 1 mature egg and that was exciting... but the sucky part was i was almost of shots and they wanted me to do 2 more days of 185.5 and that would of cost us just darn near 600$ for them 2 shots but i did end up doing a 75 unit and a 75 until and that made everything ok...but wish i had that extra money to do them other 2 full days...but doctor was happy with how everything was looking...yes 11 days of shots DONE...but i had to do one more and that was my ovadril shot it helps stimulate the i did that and then leo and i went on a min work/vacation he worked i r-n-r...then after  you take your ovadrill shot you have timed intercourse 12hrs and 36hours later...then take a home pregnacy test 2 weeks later....and boy that 2 weeks lasted a lifetime!!

Let go back..........way back...

June 19th 2004 in Theilman,Minnesota Leo and I got married it was such a beautiful day and we got to share it with so many special people.
Then we went onto our week long honeymoon to Duluth, that was soo fun and relaxing!
Like most married couples we start thinking about a family. We wanted to be parents so bad. We were happy in love and just wanted everyone to be perfect.. We knew we would have a long road ahead of us TTC(trying to conceice) I was dignosed with pcos(Polycystic ovary syndrome) back in jr high. I didn't have regular periods and that equals to no ovulation at all or only a slim chance to ovulate..But we tryed it all natural no medications or doctors for about 6 months..well nothing was happening. No ovulation no positive pregnancy test nothing...we were in a rut..and didn't know what to do... So i went to my regular doc and she put me on clomid witch is suppose to help you ovulate well heck it did nothing for me besides made me moody. Then i was put on Clomid and Metformin and i gained alot of weight my body didn't react very well with the metformin so i got of that.. after about 4 rounds of clomid nothing happened so we just took a break. After that i decided to go to mayo and talk to a fertility doctor and see what she said. (this was about a year later after we did the 4 rounds of clomid) Well she ran many test and all came back to pcos no ovulation blah blah everything i pretty much new she wanted to try clomid again but on a higher dose we go again.. 3 rounds of clomid and nothing... besides negative pregnancy test! It was hopeless it felt like nothing was going to work.. Then she mention gastric bypass..haha i said i don't need gastric bypass i'm fine i'm happy im healthy i have no health problems besides pcos... but i did as she said and went and seen a gastric bypass doctor... and i decide ok i will get this surgery done because it will up my chances of getting pregnant...even though i didn't wanna do it at first i was 100% against it... i didn't think i needed it..but looking back i was soo blind at how heavy and how much weight i have gained threw out the years..i just didn't want to admit that i needed help with my weight...well To get gastric bypass there are many test you have to get done a also, a 6 week weight loss course you have to take and many i mean many appt after appts..Then i got my approval letter from my insurance and then a date was set Jan 29th of 2010 i got my rny done. It was amazing besides all the complications ect...but almost 2 years later and i went for 289 to 165 and i love life i feel amazing......So... at my 1 year post op gastric bypass appt they told me i was ok to start trying again...Boy was i excited!!!!!! I though i lost all this weight things are going to go according to plain were going to get pregnant right away....well that was a slap in the face....we tried and tried and tried for about hummm 4 months and nothing again!! I mean what the heck can i do now? i'm healhy and my body is still broken...Boy was i frustrated and angry...So back to the fertility doctor we go...we did 2 months of clomid and it didn't work...So what now?? Bigge and better and more exspensive fertility drugs we decussued ivf, iui, timed intercourse, well...needless to say everything costed money besides the timed intercourse..haha but we also need some fertility meds to help us she gave us perscriptions for gondatropin so we decided to go and get this filled....until she said insuance didnt cover it and it was 3000$ WTH how was i going to randomally pull 3000$ out of my butt? for not were stuck how are we going to come up with much money? I talked with the doctor and they gave us some wonderfull tips and websites were we can get our medication cheaper.. but also you can fill out a form and if  you qualify you might get one month of medication for free...FREE!! That is what i like to hear so i went home filled out the paper boy they need to know my whole life story and then some...about 3 weeks later we got APROVED for a free month of treatment!!! i was soo excited!! Onto the next blog...The month of doctor appt and shots!