A few days after Christmas...and im lazy!!

Wow!! Christmas has came and gone!! How crazy..time is flying!! Monday we will be 16 weeks!!

How was everyone Christmas? Ours was Christmas was busy!

Sunday went to my stepdads side of the family

Monday went to the in laws had dinner, and open gifts and went to church service

Tuesday went to my moms..had tons of presents to open the little boys got spoiled!! but it was a blast to watch them open the gifts they opened..they got side tracked by toys and toys and more toys!

I had the best Christmas present ever..and that's the wonderful miracle growing inside of me! what a blessing it is!! and a wonderful gift! I got a bunch of gift cards..they are needed because im growing out of my clothes!! Baby got his/or/her first pair of John deer Socks and tractor and a bear that plays music

I took my tree down the night of xmas...yes i was sick of looking at it and my cats were going to destroy it..Now i have so much cleaning to do its soo soo so overwhelming!! I wanna scream!! EEEK!!

but today was L.A.Z.Y day for me..i know i had alot to do..but i need it..i was tired, and overwhelmed..and i even took and hr and half nap...Baby is surly taking alot out of momma!! But thats ok..Im blessed to have a wonderful family and husband who help me out... Even though i feel like a failure as a wife sometimes because i just don't have energy to do anything yet..but my husband is so understanding..im truly blessed!

1 goal i have for 2013 is to start going to church more..i love our church and i want our child to grow up with god in his/or/her life!!

Going to church just makes you feel so much better!!

well here are some pictures of this weekend :) Enjoy!

Baby Bear from grandma/grandpa Newman

John Deer Socks & Tractor from Grandpa/Grandma Himle

Christmas Day with my favorite christmas gift!

15 weeks pregnant

My "Due Date" June 10th 2012

Well...iv been holding off on writing this blog...just because of the fact..that the day has came and gone and my babies are up in heaven and not in my arms! I have grieved so much over the last 7 1/2 months that yesterday i felt ok, its ok to move forwards , i will be ok! Hubby and i did get 2 balloons 1 pink & 1 blue since we never made it that far to even know the gender of the babies.. and wrote on the balloons and sent them up to heaven for them to play with. I cryed when we let them go and we sat and watched them for awhile but my husbands arms were wrapped tight around me and letting me just cry.

With all the support of my family and friends it also made the day a little easier!

Thank you all so much!

Leo and I will always have a special place in our hearts for the babies! 

So im just going to make the blog short and sweet!!!

Here is what was wrote on the balloons

Dear Baby

Mommy & Daddy loved you so very much

we wanted you more then anything

we know your in  a better place know

we love you very much

xoxox

love always & forever

mom & dad

what did you do this weekend?!?!

Hello everyone! How was everyones 3 day holiday weekend?!? Mine was pretty good!
Sat: Hubby worked and then we had movie night at our house..and just relaxed the weather was kinda crummy







Sun: The weather was beautiful!! Went to the beach with my Best Friend Alicia and my Hubby we went there from like 1pm-530ish...then we went and had pizza after it was so much fun and relaxing!! i loved every min..got my tan on for sure :)

Mon: Well today didn't go as planned... I really wanted to do like a million things with my hubby, go hiking and feed the deers at the park and just have fun...well i woke up in the worst pain ever..like to the point i was bent over walking to the bathroom..i had horrible cramps so bad and my ovaries felt so full and im so bloated!! so my day consist of laying on the couch and occasionally walking outside..did a load of laundry..and that was about it... My husband was so fantastic and took care of me..got me Gatorade and made sure i had enough water and made sure i ate...he is truly a blessing did i ever tell you how much i love my husband?!? ALOT ALOT ALOT im like the luckiest girl ever!

Tue im going to get my a mani and pedi im way excited! Only if im feeling better..I hope i am!! because im getting them done for free :) Nothing beats free right?!?

Then my mom is going to be gone from fri -and come home mon so i will be spending the weekend with my sister and nephew!! It should be fun! I believe were going to try to go to the zoo one of the days..so im looking forward to that!!

So..the pain iv been into has been horrible (Monday) cramps, cramps, cramps and more cramps and bloating and horrible Pain..i know i had over 20 plus follicles and im on pelivic rest and i should be ovulating soon..i would think?!?! so i'm hoping this mean ovulation and soon the pain will go away..thanks to resting, drinking lots of fluid, Tylenol and and icepack that makes things a little better!!! im also so bloated looks like im like 3 months pregnant..than gosh for stretchy pants because i was not even tempting to put my blue jeans on today!! it would have been depressing!!