Thursday, December 27, 2012

A few days after Christmas...and im lazy!!

Wow!! Christmas has came and gone!! How crazy..time is flying!! Monday we will be 16 weeks!!
How was everyone Christmas? Ours was Christmas was busy!
Sunday went to my stepdads side of the family
Monday went to the in laws had dinner, and open gifts and went to church service
Tuesday went to my moms..had tons of presents to open the little boys got spoiled!! but it was a blast to watch them open the gifts they opened..they got side tracked by toys and toys and more toys!
I had the best Christmas present ever..and that's the wonderful miracle growing inside of me! what a blessing it is!! and a wonderful gift! I got a bunch of gift cards..they are needed because im growing out of my clothes!! Baby got his/or/her first pair of John deer Socks and tractor and a bear that plays music
I took my tree down the night of xmas...yes i was sick of looking at it and my cats were going to destroy it..Now i have so much cleaning to do its soo soo so overwhelming!! I wanna scream!! EEEK!!
but today was L.A.Z.Y day for me..i know i had alot to do..but i need it..i was tired, and overwhelmed..and i even took and hr and half nap...Baby is surly taking alot out of momma!! But thats ok..Im blessed to have a wonderful family and husband who help me out... Even though i feel like a failure as a wife sometimes because i just don't have energy to do anything yet..but my husband is so truly blessed!
1 goal i have for 2013 is to start going to church more..i love our church and i want our child to grow up with god in his/or/her life!!
Going to church just makes you feel so much better!!

well here are some pictures of this weekend :) Enjoy!

Baby Bear from grandma/grandpa Newman

John Deer Socks & Tractor from Grandpa/Grandma Himle

Christmas Day with my favorite christmas gift!

15 weeks pregnant

Monday, December 24, 2012

alot to be thankful for!

Merry Christmas Eve!
What a year it has been..So many ups and downs, Tears and Smiles!
This Time last year we were pondering the idea of starting fertility medication again after our sad/ devastating miscarriage.The miscarriage took alot out of me physically and emotional i lost a small piece of my heart, and couldn't figure out why me? after everything i been threw why me? I will never know the answer..But i do has made me one stronger person!
Here we are sitting here 1 year later and were are 15 weeks pregnant..How blessed are we?..i think about our babys almost every day..i have a special necklace i wear..But these baby angels are watching over there baby brother/or/sister and helping him or her grow..This baby is going to be so loved..words can't even explain! Its so loved already! Baby Newman is a special little baby..after 8 1/2 long years we get our miracle blessing what more can you ask for? We still have so much to do in the next 5 1/2 months..but i know my family and in laws will help because some how some way everything works out at the end!!
I am blessed with an amazing family!! Wow, where would i be with out them? Lost, sad, crazy?!? hard telling they are there for me no matter what!! I have the best of friends anyone could ask for..only a few friends but you know what...thats all i need i don't need the drama..and the few i have...they mean the world to me!
But most of all my amazing husband! He has been my rock we have been threw so much...and i mean SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much!! He has been so strong and forgiving and loving and caring! He is truly perfect! Hes my sole mate  and best friend and soon to be an amazing father to our baby. I am so thankful for everyone in my life! Thank you to everyone!! I hope you all have a blessed Holiday!!


I Loved You From The Start

Submitted by: AFKitten
Author: Unknown
I loved you from the very start…

You stole my breath, embraced my heart.

Our life together has just begun,

You’re part of me, my little one.

As mother with child, each day I knew

My mind would be filled with thoughts of you.

I’m daydreaming of the things we’ll share,

Like late-night bottles and teddy bears.

Like first steps and skinned knees,

Like bedtime stories and ABC’s.

I’m thinking of things you’ll want to know,

Like how birds fly and flowers grow.

I’ve thought of lessons I’ll need to share,

Like standing tall and playing fair.

When I first see your precious face,

I’ll pray your life be touched with grace.

I’ll thank the angels from above,

And promise you unending love.

Each night I’ll lay you down to sleep,

I’ll gently kiss your head and cheek.

I’ll count your little fingers and toes,

I’ll memorize your eyes and nose.

I will linger at your nursery door,

Awed each day that I love you more.

Through misty eyes, I’ll dim the light,

And whisper, “I love you” every night.

As mother with child our journey’s begun,

My heart’s yours forever, little one.

I loved you from the very start…

You stole my breath, embraced my heart

Our First Glimpse

Submitted by: cma2a17
Author: unknown
Today we saw
Our first glimpse of You.
A little piece of heaven
Our dream come true.
The day we will meet
Seems so far away.
But until you're ready
In my womb safely stay.
Our gift from Angels
Sent from above
For us to cherish
And forever to love.

Friday, December 21, 2012


15 weeks are just around the corner...things seem to be going good...
Iv been stressing out alot, worrying about losing, or im going to wake up and there is going to be no scared i want my baby to keep growing and i want him/or/her to go full term and be happy and healthy. Im tired all the time..i drink a cup of water and pee 10X in an hour lol... I can't keep up on the house work, because im so tired...Iv been having alot of pressure in the pelvic area when im up on my feet to much and im worried something might go wrong, or something is going wrong. Im craving sweets like crazy but if i eat to many i get sick..So that comes to I will be happy when Holidays are done and over with, no more cookies, cakes, fudges ect..i feel like a gigantic house..its just a mind thing i know..but after being almost 300lbs then dropping down to 160 and then getting up to 175 and now your a little over 185..YIKES!!!!!!!! i feel like a fatty :-/
I also feel like im not doing enough for my husband and or family. I feel like im not a good wife sometimes i feel like a crabby grumpy witchy wife..and i feel like i don't watch my nephews enough when needed or help my family when needed...
I think my body HATES to be pregnant!!! Iv always been an outgoing bubbly fun to be around person..and now i wanna sleep and have no energy and crabby and just..BLAH!
I am blessed 1billion% to be pregnant with this baby i will do anything for him or her..I just feel like all these crazy hormones are making me a horrible person to be around... Maybe its just me...i dunno!!

pregnancy photo

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

14 weeks (yesterday)

14 weeks (yesterday) everything seems to be going is growing, im growing lol! Its pretty easy to find the hb on my doppler now its so neat because its so loud sometimes and you can hear baby moving and grooving around! Can't wait to start feeling baby move!

My only concern and worrisome is

yesterday i went to my regular doc for what i thought i had a yeast infection (didn't have one) and she did a urine test just to make sure everything was ok...she told me that i had sugar in my urine and alot of it my number was above 500!!! she said it should be at a zero!! So i got home (moms house) and cried because i was worried..and called my nurse last night no answer..called this morning no answer..left messages both times..and still no call back! what the heck?!? so at 14 weeks i may or may not have gestational diabets? im not sure..just know that sugar spilling out in your urine is NOT OK! then i took my blood sugar after dinner last night it was 177 and this morning it was 84 but my sister told me to check it an hr after i we will see what it says then! Im just hoping and praying the doctor or nurse will call me back SOON!!

14 weeks

Monday, December 10, 2012

2nd trimester...Helloooo 13 weeks :)

WOW!! after 8 long years of trying and 1 mc..i can't believe im finally saying..HELLO 2ND TRIMESTER!!!
Where has the time gone? 13 weeks already! Im am so happy!!
so whats been going on'
My belly is growing and so are my boobs..yeah there gigantic!! they were so sore the other night i had cold water bottles sitting on them..haven't been sick in almost a week..** knock on wood ** Everything seems to be going pretty good..i have the every day growing pains..and a lack of sleep! but i will take it all!!!
I am truly blessed, and so excited!!!
Jan 17th we have our next doctors appt the big one..will it be a boy or girl?!? however...were having a gender revel party on the 19th so we won't know until then! Just want to spend that special moment with our friends and family!! Im excited!! Im  thinking baby is a girl!! :)
Either way im fine with it!!

Here is my 13 week picture...i look like crap..but wanted to get a cute picture in the snow :)