Todays doctors appt...Drum roll please.......

SUCKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yep... today's doctors appt was depressing...no mature follies at all...they were there..nothing big!! so im suppose to use opks see if i get a positive one..im almost 1500000% sure i won't....and then on cd 31 start provera again..bring on my period and start this damn cycle all over again!! Will it come to an end ever?!?!? All this negative stuff is making me go crazy..for real..im forgetting stuff and i can't sleep and my mind is racing...seems like when we are not TTC all i wanna do is ttc, and get my positive..but when we are ttcing im ready to throw my hands up and give up!! i know i won't...im so lucky to have such amazing support from friends and family!! i will keep fighting this fight until i have a little one to call my own......but days today my heart just hurts.....
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