sometimes..i feel....alone........

Sometimes i feel alone........i know i have my family and my few friends...but yet i still feel alone....
No one understand the fertility stuff..in 2 weeks..it will be an year since we got our 1st big fat positive..will i ever get over this?!? will i get my bfp again?? Im trying to help everyone and be the best wife..friend...aunt..daughter.. granddaughter..ect..i can be...I try to keep myself busy...You know i haven't cried in a long time.........haven't cried after my cycle last month..or the month before that...I think all this stuff makes me feel numb sometimes....No one understand the hormones...How one day your fine..the next day you wanna kill everyone.....Maybe sometimes i just ask to much of people?!?
I dunno today is a horrible day ant its ONLY 9:32am!!!