Monday, March 5, 2012

sitting and thinking...((not a good thing sometimes))

so im trying to relax do to the fact i feel like crap..went to the doctor today and got some meds...and im sitting and thinking....In week or soo...we test again...i want more then anything then for there to be a BIG FAT POSITIVE!! but if not do i keep going with treatment or do i take sometime off?!? thats hard...because i want anything more then to be a momma, the last couple of days seeing Leo with Colton and Blaze makes me so proud..Hes going to be a fantastic dad...He loves them little boys so much...We could still be pregnant my due date could be in June...But No!!!!!!!! It was taken away..i will never know why!! It still hurts...Still makes me so sad...exspecially when i have friends who were due around the same time as me and i see there cute bellys, and hear about the baby breaks my hear........MAKES ME SAD..........


MyLife said...

I know the feeling I had a miss carry june 5th 2010 and I didn't even know I was pergnant because I only would get my monthly 3 or 4 times out of the year but since then my monthly went less and less finally I went 8 months without one and that's when I went in and found out I have pcos my best friend is due june 9th of this year and I SIX other friends are due this year too im happy for all my friends but it breaks my heart that im not. Im just glad im not alone in this journey. O