5 day.pouch test....

Since i had rny(weight loss surgery) almost 3  yrs ago(jan will be 3 yrs) iv been craving lots of carbs and been kinda of nuts about them.........so im going to be doing the 5 day pouch diet....it helps stop the carb cravings and shrinks my pouch a little and helps me get back into protein 1st!!im going to do the liquid diet for 3 days..vs 2

Iv done it before and it helps alot get back on track

also im going to exercise alot more!! so lets hope i get back on track and get the pounds off!!

it looks like this

Days One & Two: three Liquid Protein
low-carb protein shakes, broth, clear or cream soups, sugar-free gelatin and pudding. 
Day 4: Soft Protein
canned fish (tuna or salmon) eggs, fresh soft fish (tilapia, sole, orange roughy
Day 5: Firm Protein 
ground meat (turkey, beef, chicken, lamb), shellfish, scallops, lobster, fresh salmon or halibut.
Day 6: Solid Protein
white meat poultry, beef steak, pork, lamb, wild game

at my biggets...then down 122.5lbs



MY SMALLEST WEIGHT DOWN AROUND 127LBS

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Back up weight.... :(

stupid af..........

yep! thats right..another round down the toilet.........af showed her ugly face.......but guess what no provera to bring it on!!!!!!! so i am way way way excited about that...i would have been way way more excited about it just not showing up..lol but what can i do..take it day by day..or min by min if i hate to!!

my weekend has been crazy busy but i have enjoyed every min of it!!
will write more later :)

hope everyone is enjoying labor day!!

Im going to try...........

Im going to try and make the best out of today and the rest of the weekend
I take a pg test next week if its positive yippie if not then i will suck it up and move on to the next round of medication..i mean 1 more round isn't going to kill me..haha...i try not to be negative but sometimes i am..its hard.. especially when every person you know has a child but you! I would love to join the gym but i can't fork out 300$ i mean i have the money is savings but im not willing to take that out and use it towards a gym membership..im at my highest weight again 175! yikes!!! i feel and look like a blob :( my lowest every was 164/5- i would love to get down to at least 165 again..thats 10lbs i gotta get off ok..sounds easy enough right..WRONG because these flippen ten lbs don't wanna come off!! I did talk with a trainer but iv been thinking about it if i wanna do it or not...i have the tools i just need to push myself to do it...i need to walk/jog every day and eat right..iv done it before i can do it again..ugh..seems so easy but its not!!
so my small goals

drop 3lbs
walk every day even if its only 20min
do 30 sit-ups every day
drink alot more water
drink my 2 protein shakes a day
stay away from as many carbs as possible
stay away from candy/junk food
stay away from adult beverages


i can do this........................i think!!..................................

i sit and wonder......

I sit and wonder if my time will ever come as a mother...This 2 week wait is killing me...iv had some symptoms of pregnancy however since im on progesterone that can give me the same symptoms! I want anything more then to be a mom..8 long years is to long on my heart..it gets to the point were nothing surprises me i don't cry anymore..i try to keep myself calm and stress free but..if you know me..im a stresser..easier said then done...i have so many options to think about...do i take a few months of again

drop another 15lbs and then start again? i do believe weight plays a factor i did get pregnant when i was at my lowest weight..i would love to join a gym i can't afford with between bills, and fertility medication, ect..and i would like to get a new vehicle but i don't see that happening anytime in the near future....

...do i stick with femera and do a few more rounds and hope for the best? insurances covered the femera so it only cost 3$ very nice on the pocket book...i didn't have any mature follies last round..but i did get a positive opk test..however..just because i got a positive opk dosent mean i actually ovulated it could mean i just had a lh surge...do i go back go gonal f shots sits my body responded to them? but yet im scared to over stimmulte and waste so much money.....do i just wait and save money and do iui and gonal f in jan...and just keep doing femera until then?

so many options i don't know what to do anymore..i wanted to be pregnant like 8yrs ago..and have like 10 kids...but heck i can't even have one...it makes you feel less of a woman..like you fail in life..you can't make your husband a dad..your father and mother grandparents or your brother or sisters aunts or uncles...ugh...life sucks sometimes.......i get sick of hearing........

1) your time will come

2) just adopt there are so many children that need familys( ok if i had the money to adopts don't you think i would have moved forward in my infertility treatments?!?)

3) take a few months off (i have many many times..it don't work)

so really...am i ment to be a mother?! or will i be an aunt forever and never get to experiences motherhood??

 

Hope all these are good signs........

The last couple of days iv been having some symptoms.....I hope its a good sign that my body is working right

1) yesterday/last night got my 1st  happy ovulation face!! yippie!!
2) Hello Acne (i never ever ever break out in acne) 
3)Tired all the time 

4)Mild cramps on right side ( in the front and back) 



5)bloating!! i feel like i should be 5 months pregnant..i look extra chunky lol (only in the belly area)

Signs of ovulation.....

Common Signs of ovulation that occur in most women:

• Change in cervical fluid. Cervical fluid that resembles “egg whites” is a sign that you are near ovulation or are ovulating. Every woman can experience her own type of cervical fluid, and not all cervical fluid looks the same. Ovulation usually takes place on the day a woman has the most amount of wet fluid.
• Change in basal body temperature. For most women, you will see that prior to ovulation, the basal body temperature is rather consistent. As you get closer to ovulation, you may have a slight decline, but it will be followed by a sharp increase after ovulation. The increase in temperature is the sign that ovulation has just occurred. Tracking your basal body temperature accurately over a few months can help you predict when ovulation is going to occur.
• Change in cervical position or firmness. The cervix goes through many changes as a woman ovulates. A woman may notice the clear signs of ovulation; her cervix will be soft, high, open and wet. For most women it will take some time in studying her body to be able to differentiate between what her cervix normally feels like and the changes it goes through during ovulation.

These 3 main signs of ovulation can be studied and learned so that you can accurately predict your time of ovulation. Using the Fertility Awareness Method many women have used these signs to prevent or achieve pregnancy.

Secondary signs of ovulation

There are other ovulations signs that women may experience in addition to the 3 main signs. These are called secondary signs and may not happen as consistently, if at all, for many women.
These may include:

• Light spotting
• Slight cramping or pain on one side of the pelvis
• Breast tenderness
• Abdominal bloating
• Increased sex drive
• Heightened sense of smell, taste or vision

Learning to track your ovulation and pay attention to your signs can be a challenge for some women at first. But over time, many women come to recognize these common signs very easily and are able to use them to gauge where they are in their cycle. Understanding your ovulation time can help you become more in tune with your body and be an active participant in what occurs each month.

A BIG FAT.........

we are ovulating with out my ovadril!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A BIG FAT POSITIVE FOR OVULATION!! YIPPIE!!