Holy Yoga

Today i took a class called Holy Yoga & I loved it!!! Its soo relaxing and spiritial...
I walk into a room that the lights are off and the candles are lit and soft christian music is playing...just a calming place...and we did our yoga and bible scrips were read and christian music was played...Can't wait to go again on Wed!!!
Here is a little more info on it


What is Holy Yoga?

Holy Yoga is a form of worship that is meant to strengthen people's relationship with Jesus Christ. The only intention is to produce a Christ honoring encounter to both believers and non-believers alike. The goal is to combine God's Word and worship with physical and mental health. Yoga involves deep breathing, and when breathing and movement are combined, along with committing oneself to Christ, the result is appearing in the abundance of His brilliance.

Crampy Sundy........

Happy Sunday everyone...1st off not a big fan of sundays do to the fact i would be one weeker closer to my due date i would be 22weeks pregnant today.......UGHH!!!!!!!!!   But Nope...Im ZERO week pregnant...So im had some horriable cramps today and a very very light pink when i wipe...hopefull thats good news or a sign AF is going to show up however thats not due to come for another few weeks..... So im still on the 2 week wait....yep its going slower then ever!!!!!!!



EMOTIONS.....

As i sit here and my mind wont shut off...the next few weeks will be emotional for me i know it...first off the ovadril shot doesn't help it makes my boobs hurt and my body tired"its like a pregnancy hormone" and the 2 week wait will be starting soon in the next few days "not giving the day out" and i HATE that wait...it seems like it takes forever to come....and when the day does come im scared because i want nothing more then a positive test! Also im so sick and tired of hearing about people being pregnant ...And all these mothers who would rather drink and go out or pond there child to someone it makes me sick nothing they can have kids but yet so many of us who want them can't!! Or these mothers who kill there children or child...ugh makes me ANGRY!!!!!!!!

Also this Sunday i would have been 22 weeks pregnant...i would be out buying stuff and i would know the sex of my baby and i would be a pregnant lady for once...but NO it had to be taken from me...am i still mad about that YES! maybe i shouldn't be but i am........yes im having a little pity party for myself!!!!!!!  All i want to do is relax the next 2 days........................however i need to run to winona and grocery shop and run other errands...........maybe saturday and sun i can...However i need to CLEAN also...i hate Cleaning!!! yuck wish i had a cleaning fairy!!!

Ps i also got the laptop so more bloggs!!!!!!! Yippie :)

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NOT ON MY 2 WEEK WAIT YET......BUT ALMOST!! :-)

Doctors app!!

Well....Today i had an ultrasound to measure my egg follicle to see if i had an mature ones....and i had 1 really really really good one measured at 26 by 21 and last time in September i only had 1 measured at 18 so they are really happy with that...I am really happy with that!!!!!!!! I couldn't of asked for a better result today! So.....I take my hcg ovadril shot at 7pm tonight!! And then timed intercourse 12 and 36 hours later and start my progesterone on Saturday!! Then we take a pregnacty test the middle of February i won't be telling anyone the date...besides my mom, sisters and a few other people!! I feel like things are going so great I hope we get a Big Fat Positive!!

I had a great day today...got great news and spent the afternoon with my momma went to the Olive Garden and had all you can eat soup,salad and bread sticks and it was  yummy! We had a great afternoon...Then went back to moms and hung out with the girls and the kidos!!

All Around GREAT DAY!!!!!!!!!!!


BESIDES SPENDING 140$ ON MEDICATION!! OUCH!!!!!

MOODY-STRESS-HORMONAL

I HATE all these hormone shots!! They make me so moody

 for no stupid reason and they make my body feel strange...i know all this is worth it and i will do it a million times over if i have to...I just wish it was done and over and we were pregnant...Im so scared about Thursdays ultrasound..i know my blood work was fantastic yesterday but nothing ever seems to go smooth for me..i'm waiting for something bad to go wrong....or for once will something actually go right for once?! only time will tell! 

 I am very blessed to have a great husband...how many man would stick around with a woman who has many emotions and who has pcos/ and can't give them a child!...He never gives up on me...i know some days i have been very hard on him..but hes all i have to lean on sometimes...My mom and sisters have enough to deal with...and i know leo does to....but he somehow makes everything better...even if its a simple text, hug, or making me a hot cup of tea..Even on my worst days he will do something to bring a little smirk to my face...(((Thank you Leo for everything))) <<Our dreams of becoming parents will come true someday, hopefully sooner then later>>

Tomorrow is my ultrasound to see how my body is doing and if i have any released eggs and if any are mature..with my numbers being so high im hoping they are doing great...and we have some that are mature or pretty close to mature! We are on our 2nd Gonal f pen...have a little over 800 units left on it...so lets hope its enough to make it threw this round of fertility treatment!!!! We do have to buy our other medication this week around 140$ worth..ughh stressful... wish money grew on trees...but then we would be all gready people and take everything for granite in life...I am very happy with everything i have...I know i complain but im only human!!

Well that's it for the night!!!!!!!

Ughhhhhh!!!!!

I'm sitting here thinking!!! My weight I hate where it is at!!!!!!!! I feel like a hipo!! I need to bust my ass again!! Watch everything!!! Watch all my   and kick exercising in the butt even if I don't want to!!!! I'm sooo sick of this feeling!!! My clothes look horriable on me!!! I feel fat fat fat fat