Mothers Day is here....Now What....?!!?!!?

**First and For most, Happy Mothers Day to my beautiful strong amazing Mother**

Happy Mothers Day to all the Moms, Moms with angels, TTC lady's

Ok........

Mothers Day is here...What now?!? Do i sit and cry all day? do i sit and just do a pity party? do i just throw my hands up and say I'm done? Do i feel sorry for myself? Do i hate the world?

I am going to TRY my best to have a beautiful day just like any other day!!

WHY YOU ASK??

Here is why...

1) i have the most amazing mother to be thank full for and to celebrate today

2) i have the most amazing sisters and grandmother to be thank full for and to celebrate

3) i have 2 amazing nephews who i am very thank full to spend my day with today and who would not be in this world if it wasn't for my sisters

4) i get to spend all day with my family having a nice cookout

5) the weather is beautiful and the birds are chirping

6) because i know i am a mother, i care for others and really does being a mom mean caring for your own child? YES i want more then to have my own child but...i KNOW that will happen someday!!

7) i get to spend the entire day with my husband who got me a rose plant yesterday

8) i truly am blessed for life and being hear on earth

9) we get to eat good food!

10) because i can't give up!!!

Am i sad that i am not carrying a child or that i don't have a child? YES! I do have my angel baby(s) who i will carry forever in my heart!! but im tired of being sad im tired of being depressed...truly im tired of the test the poke the heartache...but i know deep down i will be a mother.......In time being i have 3 amazing nephews and 1 joy full outgoing little niece..who i love with all my heart and sole that my body could give them!!

I hope everyone has a blessed day!!!

I just recived this poem from my aunt..made me cry...but it was very beautiful i had to share it!

"The Busiest Day In Heaven"

It's the busiest day in Heaven
I'm planning a big surprise
To let you know I love you
And that no one ever dies

Even though your down below
And I am up above
I'm sending you my wishes
And all my angel love

It's really quite exciting
To plan this big event
For lots of gifts will come your way
And all are Heaven sent

First I'll take a bubble bath-
My splashes might cause some rain
But knowing all the fun I'm having
Will help to ease your pain

Next I'll get some pictures
In my halo and gown
So when you get to Heaven
You can show me all around

I have color crayons in Heaven
And I will draw some stars so bright
And place them in the sky today
For you to see tonight

Then Jesus will have story time
And I will sit upon his lap
He'll tell me all about you
Just before I nap

I'll awake full of energy
And play a game or two
Before I finish sending
All my love to you

After snack I'll write a song
For all the birds to sing
And know I've made you happy
With all the joy it brings

At night time I'll be tired
But I'll still hold you tight
My arms will wrap around you
And keep you through the night

And when you finally slumber
I will kneel and pray
Asking God to bless you
On this special Mothers Day

Love,
Your Little Angel

also...an odd little note for everyone to know...I will be starting my Gonal-F shots on Tuesday and hopefully getting a hsg test done anywhere from this fri to sometime next week...and then hopefully taking a pregnacy test tometime the 1st week in june... lets hope we get a bfp for our 8yr annv!